Sunday, October 20, 2013

The Incident Near Thaddeus Hall

It’s sensational how inspiration can strike when I least expect it. The entire story that follows was all inspired by a nightmare I had a few days ago. In the dream I saw everything play out right before my very eyes, and with a few, minor tweaks here and there, I think you’ll leave this story with a chill down your spine and the lights on as you go to bed tonight…much like the boys in the story…
 
 
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“The Incident Near Thaddeus Hall”
A Michael and Marlon Jackson Horror Story By:
MJsLoveSlave
 
Fernsby, England
Spring, 1970
The small, rural village of Fernsby, situated about one hundred and fifty miles north of metropolitan London was the type of place that had barely changed in the six centuries since it’s formation.
Over the years, yes, the buildings had transformed from small, thatched roofed huts, to more modern, brick and wooden structures, but that same, ease of life, walk-don’t-run sort of mentality hung over the village, numbering about seven hundred.
Ideally, Fernsby was the type of place one would not want to rush through…it was a town as picturesque as any landscape painting. Lush, rolling green hills, wildflowers in every shade of the rainbow pushing forth from the fertile grown and turning their multicolored petals towards the warm sun. on the outer edge of town, lambs, hens, turkeys, geese and cows grazed peacefully, none knowing that one day they would decorate a dinner table as the centerpiece.
The center and heartbeat of Fernsby, as it had been since the year 1802, was Thaddeus Hall, a prestigious all-boys academy that had been turning some of the most prominent and well-educated young men into English society for over a hundred years.
And two of the boys attending this school were brothers Michael and Marlon Jackson, ages twelve and thirteen, respectively.
Any one even caring to give the twosome a passing glance noticed immediately that the two boys, for all their sweet temperedness, charisma and joking charm, were quite different from all of their counterparts at Thaddeus Hall.
Of the two hundred or so young boys at the school, the Jackson brothers were the only ones not born of British blood.
Michael and Marlon, were the sons of Joseph Walter Jackson, an African-American millionaire, who had made his wealthy through shrewd Wall Street investments and his wife Katherine, a lovely homemaker noted for her tea parties.
Both Mr. and Mrs. Jackson stressed the importance of a good education, especially to Black boys who would grow into Black men, and held it above all else.
Mr. Jackson had sought for years to have his children study abroad, learning how to immerse themselves and acclimate to a different culture entirely, a skill that would be quite valuable as he expected his boys to follow his footsteps on Wall Street.
And the reputed Thaddeus Hall was all that the boys’ father had dreamt of and more for the international connections it could potentially offer his sons.
(The Jacksons’ two sisters, Janet and Latoya were also abroad in England, in the neighboring village of Nottingham, attending the Rosewood Academy for Girls.)
Though Michael and Marlon were the only Black children attending Thaddeus Hall, there was no sense of backlash as would have most likely befallen them had they enrolled in an all-White American prep school, instead.
Michael and Marlon fit in quite well and were well-liked by all those they encounter.
That bright, flower-perfumed Friday morning was no different for the boys.
Michael and Marlon, on the steps of their dormitory, Rancifer House, were pacing back and forth, Michael on the second, wide brick laid step, and Marlon four steps up.
Both boys were still slightly uncomfortable in the “warm-weather” variant of the Thaddeus Hall uniform: a dark grey blazer over a white oxford shirt, a hunter green and grey striped tie, grey shorts, green knee socks--Marlon always seemed to forget his cocoa butter and thus his knees were forever ashy--and sensible black shoes.
Over thick, perfectly picked afros, Michael’s a stark black, Marlon’s tinged a deep natural auburn, were the green caps with the schools crest emblazoned on it.
It was the same thing every blessed school morning.
Michael and Marlon would rise, as did the other students and take breakfast in a wave of matching green quilted robes, and then rush off to wash and dress in an effort to make it to class on time.
And Marlon and Michael would have made it, if there wasn’t one little obstacle in their way:
Oliver Culler, IV.
Oliver, known as Ollie to all, descended from a long like of Cullen men who had patronized Thaddeus Hall since it’s inception. And for all the elite and moneyed blood pumping through his veins, young Ollie was always as tardy as any child could be.
Much to the distress of his closest friends, it was always a photo finish to get them to class on time.
“What the devil do you think is keeping him today?” Marlon groaned, holding a hand over his light, golden hued eyes and staring at the clock affixed to the face of the main building, showing the time as ten minutes to eight.
“Your guess is as good as mine.” Michael shrugged, removing his cap and scratching at his head, dark eyes closing in glee as his nails raked his scalp. “You know Ollie, he gets sidetracked so easily.”
Ollie was the kind of boy who could start to brush his teeth and somehow end up laid across his bed, elbow-deep in a comic book, without a care in the world.
“Yeah, but I don’t want to be sent to Headmaster Higgins again for being tardy, Mike.” Marlon replied, balling his fists and shoving them into his pockets.
The last thing either of them wanted was to have to stand clapping erasers after school, again!
“Well what you wanna do?” Michael wondered, fiddling with the buttons on his blazer.
“This!” Marlon exclaimed, before leaping off the steps onto the sidewalk.
Cupping his hands around a thick-lipped mouth, he bellowed,
Ollie! Hey Ollie! What’s the holdup, man! If you don’t come here now, you’ll be walking to class alone!”
Above them, on the third floor, a window opened.
And out of it, hung half of a pudgy body, topped by a bright white, freckle laden face and a shock of even brighter red curls.
Hold your horses, mate! I’m coming! I’m coming!” Ollie declared, agitated and disappeared from the window.
Moments later, the rather large boy huffed his way out onto the front steps, holding a couple of notebooks and textbooks under one arm.
“You’ve got a lot of nerve Marlon Jackson!” He grunted coming down the steps and bending over to catch his breath. “You know I have to trot down two staircases, while you and Mike live on the first floor!”
“So?” Michael chortled and patted his friend’s extended belly. “It’s not like you couldn’t use the exercise!”
Rolling large, green eyes at his friends, Ollie fell in step with the Jacksons, the three destined for the other side of campus for their classroom.
“Did…did you fellas finish the math assignment?” Ollie wondered, once his lungs had calmed to where he could breathe normally.
“Yeah…” Marlon cast a sneaky glance. “Did you finish that essay on Queen Victoria?”
“Uh-huh!” Ollie bobbed his head and automatically, assignments were appearing and being exchanged.
“One of these days, you’re gonna get caught pulling that stunt.” Michael warned coolly, secure in the fact that both his math homework and essay had been done by his own hand.
“Not if you keep your trap shut.” Marlon simpered the three of them coming to the center courtyard.
“Hang on a minute guys…” Michael, mind off of the cheating going on under his wide nose, was wandering off of the cobblestone walk and into the grass where a multitude of flowers were shining with morning dew.
“Gotta get some flowers...”
As he stopped and began plucking some of the brightest pink buds, Ollie questioned, a knowing note in his accented voice,
“Might those flowers be for the lovely Miss Gastrell?”
It was no secret that Michael Jackson was cuckoo, bonkers out of his mind in what he thought was love with their teacher and never failed to bring her a bouquet of flowers--when the weather permitted--each morning before class started.
There was no better feeling than to see his blooms displayed on the left corner of her desk in a small, lead crystal vase for all to see.
Michael incredulous, slim behind in the air, snapped back,
Naw, I’m picking these for Queen Elizabeth and Princess Margaret Rose!” 
Marlon, hands on his hips, tossed his head with arrogance and teased,
“You give that woman so many flowers, Mike, she can open up her own florist shop!”
As Marlon and Ollie cackled, Michael red-cheeked with embarrassment, with about a dozen flowers in his hand, picked his way back over to them.
A scowl crossed his babyishly handsome face, and he murmured,
“Well, pretty ladies need pretty flowers.”
“Yeah! From kinky-headed little boys who are about fifteen years too young for them!” Marlon hooted, giving his brother a playful punch to the arm and Ollie dropped his books he was laughing so hard.
Dark eyes narrowing, his shame mottled with anger plain on his face, Michael grumbled,
Let’s get to class, huh?”
A few, jog filled minutes later, the three boys emerged on the east end of campus, at the five story, classroom filled building that had just a touch of the medieval in its red bricked architecture.
Once inside the building that smelled heavily of old books and yellow chalk, it was to the third floor and down two corridors before they found their way into Miss Gastrell’s classroom.
While Marlon and Ollie rushed to their seats in the second row, Michael’s seat was left vacant between them.
Michael, instead, was ambling over to the woman who stood, back turned, writing the date on the board in a fine script.
Flaming all over, breaking out spontaneously in goose pimples, and feeling a flutter in his chest, Michael stared up at his teacher, eyes growing as though it were the first time he had ever set them on it.
Good morning, Miss Gastrell” Came his weakened and nearly girlish greeting past trembling lips.
At the mention of her name, his teacher set down her chalk and turned to him.
Miss Gastrell, only twenty-seven years old, was a tall, and slim creature, with a complexion like that of fresh milk. Her hair was a contrasted it, dark brown with natural golden highlights, it was parted down the middle and heightened, making her thin face appear longer. Deep, wide green eyes, without a touch of hazel, unlike Ollie’s, and framed by thick, black lashes fluttered as she looked down at her pupil.
The chic, hunter green dress, a few shades deeper than the school uniform, made her eyes a shade of emerald that was causing the adolescent boy to swoon on his feet.
Good morning, Michael.” Her voice, accented, high pitched and mild, was something like that of the British royalty. Slightly affected, elitist and on other people could have read as inwardly snobbish. On Miss Gastrell, to the ears of Michael Jackson, denoted the gates of Heaven opening and harps playing.
Sheepishly, the flowers were thrust out and delicate hands, manicured in a light pink that reflected the coloring of her pouted lips, Miss Gastrell took the flowers.
Oh Michael, how very pretty. Thank you. Such a lovely bouquet.” She commented and just as she did each morning, she walked over to that small crystal vase, placing them in the awaiting cool water and arranged them to look their most attractive before returning to the boy.
Thank you.” Taking his little brown face in her small, tender white hands, those sweet, pale painted lips pecked Michael’s scorching cheek. 
You may take your seat.”
Michael, huge, goofy grin on plastered on his face, turned and was stumbling towards his desk, causing several of the other boys to snicker at him.
“Look at that fool!”
“I bet you ten pounds he’s gonna ask her to marry him before the term is over!”
“Way to go, Mike!”
“He’s gonna be Mr. Gastrell!”
“Hahahahahaha!”
“When’s the honeymoon, Michael?”
“Boys! Boys! Boys!” Miss Gastrell, was waving her hands. “I must have order and silence if you intend to learn today!”
Michael, deaf to the teasing and jeering as it died down, sank into his seat, eyes on his love as she began scribbling on the board.
“Today we will begin examining England’s role in the Second World War and how, with the help of the American and Canadian Armed Forced defeated Adolf Hitler and National Socialists, that‘s the Nazis for those who are unfamliliar…”
(Author’s Note: My father served in the Second World War, and I am quite knowledgeable on the subject, thought my father fought in Germany, rather than in England for the US Army.)
Even thought Miss Gastrell was speaking of one of the worst manmade disasters to befall the country in recent history, Michael Jackson heard none of it and was instead envisioning his teacher perched on a balcony, reciting Juliet’s speech to his Romeo…
Marlon and Ollie, knowing that faraway, come find me expression, exchanged glances and muffled their laughter.
* * *
“… come on, what all did she cover? Tell me!” Michael pleaded that afternoon, bringing his ham and cheese sandwich to his mouth and biting it.
While most of the Thaddeus Hall boys took their lunches in the large formal dining hall, Michael, Marlon and Ollie took their meals to go, to spend the two hour break, walking around the village and goofing off.
Smacking loudly on his cheddar and pickle sandwich, bottom lip stained with mustard, Marlon waved his meal at his brother and advised,
“If you’d sit and take notes like me and Ollie do, instead of pretending Miss Gastrell is in the nude, you’d know what happened in class, silly!”
“I do NOT pretend Miss Gastrell is nude!” Michael, horrified at such a notion, nearly choked on his sandwich.
Miss Gastrell was far too kind and saintly to Michael to be thought of in such a déclassé manner.
Spinning around and walking backwards on the dirt road, Michael looked to Ollie, lagging a few feet behind them, biting into his third bacon on toast sandwich.
“Ollie, can I copy your notes, since Marlon doesn’t want to help his own flesh and blood!”
“I don’t care…” Ollie was much too involved with his meal to care either way.
“Thank you!” Turning back to Marlon, licking at his finger tips, Michael pointed to the rotund Ollie,
“He doesn’t mind helping me! He’s a real pal--a true friend!”
“Aw kiss my royal jewels.” Marlon growled, removing his cap and bowing deeply as they passed an elderly peasant woman on the road.
“Take a flying leap off the Tower of London!” Michael shot back, opening a bag of crisps (potato chips) and nibbling one.
“You know you were drooling over Miss G.” Marlon nudged Michael in the gut and helped himself to a crisp smacking on it loudly. “If it wasn’t for me and Ollie, you’d have failed the term long ago and Dad would have taken a transatlantic flight to hang his foot in your ass!”
Looking into the brightly grinning face of his brother, Michael’s head dropped, knowing he was right. Painfully, sorely right.
Michael was constantly distracted by his instructor’s haunting, pale, and prim beauty. He should have failed out and if it weren’t for the help of his brother and friend, he would have.
Ollie, mouth greasy, bacon hanging from it, called,
“Hey, we got about fifteen minutes you blokes!”
“Okay, you bloke! Cheerio and all that rubbish!” Marlon called back, squinting at the clock on the tower in the distance and feigning a poor cockney accent.
Laughing joyously, Marlon went to elbow Michael again to share the laugh.
Marlon Jackson got an elbow full of air again.
“Mike?” He questioned, and spun in a circle.
He spotted his sibling off on the other side of the road, standing at a low, weather beaten stone wall.
“Mike?” Marlon jogged over to his brother’s side. “Hey, don’t you hear me talking to you?”
Michael, seemingly captivated, looked to his brother as Ollie joined them, polishing off the last of his sandwich.
“Marlon, look…” His voice sounded like an echo he was so awed lifting a long hand, pointed.
A few yards beyond the old wall, a small chapel stood, surrounded on all sides by a sizable cemetery, which wasn’t an unusual sight in England.
“Yeah, it’s a church.” Marlon shrugged, the significance lost on him and Ollie. 
“Don’t see all the flowers you pothead?” Michael threw his head back and whined.
Surely, all around the church and dotting the crumbling cemetery were what had to be hundred of fully bloomed, huge, white English roses.
“I’ve never seen such pretty flowers, I…I have to pick some for Miss Gastrell.”
Tossing what was left of his ham and cheese on the ground, Michael was lifting a skinny leg to cross the wall.
Just as he was to drop on the other side of it, something caught his arm and was tugging him back.
It was Marlon.
“What do you think you’re doing Mike? Ollie just said we have fifteen minutes to get back to school! You know it’ll take us that long to walk back!”
“But the flowers!” Michael struggled against Marlon as he was dragged back to the road, in the distance, Ollie was scampering away.
“But nothing, I ain’t clapping erasers because of YOU! Come on!” Holding Michael by the hand tightly, Marlon was doing a full sprint, Michael staggering and stumbling most of the way.
It was quite a while before Michael Jackson could claim a moment to himself again..
Following classes, there were three hours of mandatory study period, before dinner promptly at six p.m. He’d have skipped it to go pick the roses, if it hadn’t been Friday and he simply couldn’t miss his favorite meal: Roast mutton with roasted parsnips and mashed potatoes and Yorkshire pudding. It’d have been criminally insane to miss that feast.
He then wasted another two hours in the general area of the dormitory with a few dozen other boys, sitting and watching as Marlon played poker with some of the upperclassmen, effectively winning the equivalent of thirty-five American dollars in British currency.
Now, the time for bed was swiftly approaching, and all that was on Michael’s fevered mind was those flowers.
How Miss Gastrell would adore them, and how she’d kiss him and proudly show them off on her desk. How lovely the white would pop against the dark wood and beige painted walls of the classroom.
How they would compliment Miss Gastrell’s colorless complexion.
Sitting on his bed, he watched as Ollie and Marlon, in their pajamas, reclined on Marlon’s bed, sharing a comic book.
Michael still wearing his uniform rose and began pacing, an antsy feeling taking him.
Stopping at the foot of Marlon’s bed, where the two other boys laid in peaceful laziness, he declared,
“I want to go get some of those roses.”
Marlon’s head remained down, reading and ignoring his flighty brother, but Ollie’s came up and twisted with annoyance.
“Land sake’s Mike, why do you have to get them tonight? You’re not even going to see Miss Gastrell tomorrow! Can’t they wait until after we come back from seeing Beneath the Planet of the Apes at the cinema tomorrow?” He questioned and Marlon, head still down, chimed in,
“The flowers and Miss Gastrell will still be here tomorrow, I’m sure!”
Michael, feeling silly, nodded and sighed,
“Yeah, I guess you’re right.”
And began to undress, his mind for once off his love interest and instead on Sci-fi and a race of intelligent monkey men.
He did want to see that film badly.
And the next day was going to be one that would far exceed any geek’s perception of weird and strange.
* * *
“Man, I swear to God! Beneath the Planet of the Apes was even better than Planet of the Apes! Woo!” Marlon Jackson cried excitedly as he, Ollie and Michael came bouncing out of the old movie house, mixed with a stream of other patrons.
“They should have given Charlton Heston a bigger part.” Ollie complained as the trio fell in step on the dirt road.
“Who cares about Charlton Heston?” Marlon demanded, unable to believe that was all his chum could think about. “He got to part the Red Sea in that other movie! I liked this, the fighting was awesome!”
Michael, mind on the white roses since his eyes had popped open that morning, moved ahead of the bickering two, speed walking, destined for the church.
He planned to pick as many of those blessed things as he could carry and present them to Miss Gastrell on the way to church in the morning.
“I wish there was a race of intelligent monkey men…” Ollie was bragging, swaggering, bountiful belly bouncing, beside Marlon. “I’d go fight them off, yes I would!”
“Really now?” Marlon doubled over and clapped. “Because you screamed like a girl every time you saw Dr. Zaius!”
“Aw, shut up!” Ollie grimaced, as the church came into view, the air fragrantly thick with the roses’ aroma.
Michael Jackson made a bee-line and was crossing over the wall, hiking his shorts up to the point they looked like grey brief to ease his climbing.
Ollie seeing the church and graves, wondered worried,
“Are you sure this is alright Mike? I mean picking the flowers--this is holy ground.”
“Don’t go turning into a saint now!” Michael whined letting his shorts fall back where they belong. “I’m only going to pick about a dozen roses. You really think they’ll be missed with all these growing like weeds! I‘m not gonna tear the place down brick by brick!”
“Well, I ain’t scared, unless a priest comes after me with a ruler.” Marlon, poking his little chest out announced and pulling up his uniform shorts started to cross over the wall.
Cold bricks! Cold bricks!” He cried as his boy bits touched the wall.
The brothers stared expectantly at Ollie, who, not wanting to be left behind and scorned for it the rest of the term, climbed clumsily over the wall, before falling in the dirt on the other side.
Bloody Hell!” He was left to be helped up by Marlon, as Michael enchanted by the flowers went to work, starting to examine and pluck only the best and biggest blooms for Miss Gastrell.
Marlon and Ollie occupied themselves by sitting on the wooden steps on the side of the church and bragging about the different ways they’d kill the Ape Men.
They quickly rambled through different types of firearms and swords, before growing bored and impatient as most red-blooded, lusty boys did.
“Mike, you gonna take all damn day?” Marlon demanded, forgetting he was in a sacred place and cursing. Ollie, crossed himself just the same.
Michael, about only five flowers in his hand, retorted, “You don’t have to stick around. I’m capable of picking a dozen or so flowers myself!”
At that revelation, Marlon slapped Ollie’s shoulder and huffed,
“Let’s get the hell outta here, Man!”
Ollie standing started to cross himself again and squinting, questioned,
“Hey, isn’t that Miss Gastrell there?”
At the mention his love was somewhere close by, Michael ran up onto the steps and looked.
Sure enough, a few yards away, standing over a grave was Miss Gastrell.
At least she looked like their teacher, dressed in a navy blue dress, and dabbing at her eyes with a lace handkerchief. Strangely though, her hair was quite different.
Instead of flowing and brown, it was bobbed short and a light, sheer strawberry blonde.
“That can’t be her!” Michael stated his disbelief. “Her hair doesn’t look like that!”
“Why not?” Marlon, had a hand on his hip. “Latoya had her tips frosted last week, and Mother flipped. Women change their hair all the time.”
“My Mummy does.” Ollie agreed. “Half the time, Father doesn’t know what he’ll come home to.”
“Hey, look.” Michael interrupted them and was pointing.
Two children, appearing close in age to themselves had appeared near Miss Gastrell’s side.
A tall, thin boy with white platinum blonde hair, wearing a uniform similar to their own, and a girl just as tall as the boy, wearing a jumper, also deep green over a white blouse. Long, curly brown hair was held back with a large green bow.
The children, their faces showing their sadness from even that distance, held hands with Miss Gastrell.
“That guy’s wearing a Thaddeus Hall uniform, but I swear to God and Jesus, I’ve never seen him before!” Ollie was scratching at his head, confused.
“Neither have I.” The Jacksons concurred, with Michael adding, “That girl can’t be from Rosewood Academy. All the uniforms there are burgundy and white--not green! I wonder who they are?”
“They can’t be Miss Gastrell isn’t married and I know she doesn’t have kids!” Marlon’s cap was squished in his hand as he contemplated the matter. “Well maybe they’re her niece and nephew or something. I think she mentioned she had an older brother--”
BOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As the ground rocked beneath them, the three boys screamed and were thrown onto the ground in a tangled heap of arms, legs and ashy knees.
What the bloody hell was that?” Ollie shrieked as another BOOM, much closer caused the earth to tremor violently again.
Did something explode?” Michael cried as Marlon tried to get up only to fall again.
I don’t know!”
Suddenly, as whistles in the air preceded another BOOM, Miss Gaskell was there.
She was shoving the boy and girl with her up the steps and telling them to go into the church.
Those tender white hands Michael knew so well, were pulling him, his brother and Ollie to their feet, and pulling them in tow to the church.
There was a look of pure fear on that pale face, the eyes widened worriedly, mouth tightened.
“Come along. Hurry. Hurry now--do you want to be killed?” She demanded as she flung the doors to the church open and was hustling them inside.
The flowers Michael has so carefully selected and plucked, laid on the walk, a mashed mess of broken stems and torn, bruised petals.
Killed?” The boys gasped hoarsely..
What was this? What was going on? What was happening?
Quickly now, get under a pew, each one of you now, go!” Miss Gastrell instructed quietly and urgently, shutting the doors, before lying on her belly underneath a pew herself.
I…I don’t want to die…I don’t wanna get blown up…please God…” The little girl, tears streaming from large, piercing aquamarine eyes.
Scooting over to the child,, Miss Gastrell tried to shush her.
The three boys laid speechless, unable to comprehend what was going on? Was a neighboring nation attacking?
As it suddenly became silent, the teacher was heard clearly whispering,
“You won’t die, Daisy. Put that thought out your mind. You’ll live a long full life and tell your own children and grandchildren about how you escaped the bombs in a church with your favorite aunt…” At the mention of bombs, the three boys gasped and Marlon sweating, demanded,
Bombs? Who’s throwing bombs at us?”
And the inquiry, the blonde boy, who had been lying dormant near the altar, sat up and sneered,
Have you gone daft? You know who’s throwing the bombs at us--those dirty Nazis! They killed my father in London--”
Oh hush, Liam!” Miss Gastrell advised sharply hugging Daisy as she sobbed harder, “Can’t you see you’re upsetting your sister!”
A BOOM farther away sounded.
Nazis?” The three boys gasped, eyes huge and starting to well with frightened, misunderstand tears. “What Nazis? There aren’t any Nazis! This is 1970! The war is over!”
A closer boom rocked the building, overturning unlit candles on the altar and priest‘s podium, and Liam stuttered,
“You must be mad! It’s not 1970, you imbeciles! It’s 1943!”Nineteen forty-three? How was that possible? How on God’s Green Earth was that possible? It was impossible. It was nineteen seventy! It was April of nineteen seventy!”
Nineteen forty-three!” Michael and Marlon cling to each other and Ollie’s jaw hangs as Liam cries,
Aunt Lydia who are these fools! They don’t know what year it is or what’s happening!”
I don’t want to die! Aunt Lydia, please! Please God!” Daisy pleaded, hear hysteria, eyes huge, and hugging her aunt, her tears never stopped flowing.
Hush child, please…hush…they’ll miss us. They will…” Miss Gastrell assured the girl, kissing her cheek and holding her.
“Marlon…” Michael gripped his brother’s icy hand in his. “What’s going on, what’s happening?”
Marlon, just as shaken as his sibling, murmured,
““Maybe its part of a lesson…Miss Gastrell was teaching about the war that week…”
“One bloody heck of a lesson!” Ollie simpered as the building rattles again from a particularly loud BOOM. Were the booms getting closer?
“Who throws real bombs?”
Rat-a-tat-tat! Rat-a-tat-tat! Rat-a-tat-tat!
“Jesus Christ, they’re shooting at US!” Ollie squealed like a stuck pig.
Rat-a-tat-tat! Rat-a-tat-tat! Rat-a-tat-tat!
All six, under the sacred roof of the church dove to the floor and covered their heads as machine gunfire broke out and blew out the stained glass on the south side of the church.
Covering their mouths, Michael, Marlon and Ollie screamed like girls for dear life.
It’s the Nazis! It’s the Nazis! I know it is! We’re going to die! Oh my God! I’m only eleven!” Daisy sobbed in a heap on the floor. “Now I’ll never get to marry James Stewart!”
“You don’t even know James Stewart, Daisy!” Liam declared

Rat-a-tat-tat! Rat-a-tat-tat! Rat-a-tat-tat!
Michael now wound up and fully believing he was somehow transported over twenty years back in time to World War Two, turned wide eyes to Marlon, who was unconsciously crying himself.
Marlon…are, are we going to die?”
Marlon shook his head violently, determined not to give into the ruse,
“No! She’s taking the long way around, but this is some kind of lesson!” Ollie hearing this inquired deeply,
If it is, then where’s the rest of our classmates? Why is it just us? There’s fifteen boys in our class! Why just us?”
Marlon had no answer for that. He could only press himself into the polished wood floor as more of that Rat-a-tat-tat!, rang out, bullets pinging and ricocheting off the bricks and wooden beams.
I don’t know what kind of lesson this is…” Ollie blubbered crawling over to his friends and hugging them under the pew. “But it’s going TOO FAR!”
Once more, there was sheer, deafening silence, as it seemed both the gunfire and bomb droppings had been halted.
“Is it over Aunt Lydia? Is it--”
Daisy’s mouth was covered with a delicate hand to quiet her.
A few feet beyond them, Liam cowered on the floor, hands clutching his platinum blond locks.
Somewhere a lone bird tweeted.
No one spoke, eyes sweeping back and forth, each wordlessly begging the other, was it indeed over.
Was whatever this was…had it passed them over?
Maybe it was finally over--
The doors to the church sprang open and through them came something only the Jacksons and Oliver Cullen, IV had read about in their history books!
Three Nazi officers, each in a dark grey uniform, with polished black jackboots, gleaming silver-plated swastikas gleaming all over their jackets.
Long, double barreled rifles were up and poised to be shot.
Aunt Lydia!” Liam, with tears on his red and inflamed cheeks ran to the open arms of Miss Gastrell who hugged them tightly.
One of the Nazis, noticing the other three boys beneath the pew aimed for them.
Don’t shoot us! Don’t kill us! No! I ain’t even English! I’m Black! I’m a Negro! Holy God!”
Marlon, Michael and Ollie all sputtered, their own brief lives flashing before their tear-stained, soggy eyes.
Across the room Miss Gastrell put up a trembling hand.
Please, spare the children! Kill me! Shoot me! Not them! They’re babies!”
Her words and tears seemed to have no effect whatsoever on the Nazi in front who never took his gun off of her.
Lips curling over yellowed teeth, he spoke, unfeelingly in his native tongue,
 
“Erschießen. Tötet sie alle. Die schmutzig Müll.”
(Translation: Shoot them. Kill them all. The dirty, filthy trash. )
NOOOOO! MISS GASTRELL! NOOOOOO!”
The fearsome boys could only cover their eyes and shriek as gunfire filled the small church house.
Dozens upon dozens of bullets riddled the bodies of Miss Gastrell and her niece and nephew, and both were clearly dead, before their lifeless bodies slumped onto the blood spattered floor.
The boys in a state of shock stared, Michael hit the hardest as most of the bullets had passed through what had once been Miss Gastrell’s unspoiled face, now a bloody, unrecognizable stump.
His heart unable to take the treacherous sight, Michael’s own body went limp as consciousness began to leave him.
The last thing he remembered hearing, was Marlon and Ollie screaming to God for help and more of that gunfire.
He also heard Marlon crying that he loved him.
Michael Jackson awoke with a start, his small body drenched from tip to toe in sweat.
Desperately, he fondled himself all over, expecting to feel nothing but bullet holes all over himself.
There wasn’t a mark on him, have for the scar left behind on the back of his hand, that was caused by a fish hook, during a mishap on a fishing trip in the summer of 1968.
For the first time, Michael took note of his surroundings. He was no longer in the church at the scene of a heinous multiple murder.
Instead, he was in what looked like a simple, country room, with pink and white rose covered wallpaper, that boasted a small table and simple arm chair near a window where the curtains were drawn.
Looking over, Michael noticed he was in a large bed, with frilly pink bedding, and nestled beside him were Ollie and Marlon, sweating, but sleeping peacefully.
Hey! HEY! Wake up! Marlon! Ollie!” He shook them hard and eventually they came around.
Am I dead? Am I in Heaven? Are Marilyn Monroe, Jayne Mansfield and my pet goldfish Shiny here?” Ollie wondered drowsily, before his eyes snapped open.
“Mike! Marlon! You’re alive! I’m alive! By Golly, Sweet Jesus!” He cried and was hugging them fiercely.
Oh Mike…” Marlon embraced his brother and for the first time since Michael could remember, his brother kissed his cheek.
Marlon!” Michael was so overjoyed, tears were in his eyes.
“Where the devil are we?” Ollie wondered, scratching at his disheveled red head. “This doesn’t look much like a Nazi prison, unless Hitler is fruiter than I ever figured!”
So, you sleepyheads are finally awake!” A cheerful voice announced and jaw dropped all around.
Coming through the open door of the room, a tray with three steaming bowls balanced on it, was Miss Gastrell.
She wasn’t dead! She hadn’t been killed in some alternate universe, by Nazi officers!
There she was, just as beautiful as ever, in a red dress, her hair once more long dark, and flowing.
“You’re alive!” Michael gasped, hands to his face as she went over to the table and set the bowls down.
“Come eat some soup boys, it‘s curried parsnip. And yes, I’m alive, though when I found you three, you were slipping away from it.” Miss Gastrell replied as the boys slipped from the bed and each took a seat around the small table, starting to spoon the hot, spicy and fresh food into their mouths.
“How did you find us?” Ollie wondered slurping loudly.
“Yeah?” Michael and Marlon wanted to know how they had gotten from that horrific scene to now, and what appeared to be their teacher’s house.
“Well…” Miss Gastrell sighed and placed hands on her hips,
“I was in the cemetery of the church on Old Mill Passage, paying my respects, when I heard this God-awful screeching and caterwauling and crying coming from the church. So I ran to see what was the matter: imagine my shock upon finding you three passed out cold in there. I then ran and called Dr. Lindsay, fearing you were ill with something. He said you didn’t appear to be ill, but had suffered some sort of a severe shock that knocked you out. I offered to have you brought here--it’s closer than the school.”
Her eyes took each boy in turn,
“What DID you boys see that caused you to faint?”
Not wanting to relieve such a strange and odd episode, Marlon instead wondered,
“Who were you paying respects to in the cemetery, Miss Gastrell?”
What their teacher said next, knocked the kinks out the Jacksons’ hair and made Ollie’s curls go pin straight.
“I was visiting my mother’s grave. Believe it or not, my mother was murdered in the very same chapel I found you boys.”
Gulping audibly, Michael pushed,
Was it the Nazis?”
A look of complete surprise came to his teacher’s face and she replied sadly,
Why yes…it was the Nazis who killed her, Michael.”
Going over and sitting on the edge of the mussed bed, she begin to relay a story that none of them would soon forget,
“It was on a day much like this one, that my mother, Lydia, lost her life.”
The boys exchanged incredulous and bewildered glances.
“It was the spring of 1944, I was only a few months old at the time, barely six months. My mother had her hands full. My father was off in Japan serving with the Royal British Navy, and in addition to a newborn baby, she had my older cousins, Liam and Daisy who came to live with us after both their parents were killed in a hospital bombing in London. They had been a doctor and a nurse…”
At the mention of Daisy and Liam, spoons fell with clanks into china bowls.
“My mother had taken my cousins to lay flowers on their parents grave--they’re buried in the same cemetery--when nearby, bombs began falling. That came as a complete surprise to not just them but everyone in town. No one had thought the fighting would go past London, there had been bombings and fighting there for so long…”
Miss Gastrell sniffed and tossed her hair off her shoulder.
“Mother, and Daisy and Liam took refuge in the church, I guess under the belief that they wouldn’t be hurt in a sacred place….but it didn’t help. The…the Nazis found them…and…and shot them.”
Looking from the boys, partially to hide the fact she was crying, she added,
“If mother hadn’t left me in the care of a neighbor before going to the cemetery, it’s a certainty I would have been killed myself. Just a baby, a little infant.”
She then said something that didn’t fail to stun Michael, Marlon and Ollie to their very cores.
“Everyone says I’m the spitting image of Mother. The only difference is Mother was a redhead, and my hair came out dark like Papa’s…”
She continued speaking, but none of the three at the table heard her.
The boys had been through something, experienced an event that would last with them until they drew their last breaths on Earth.
They had seen something, a terrible event to their favorite teacher…and could never tell her about it, lest they open a fresh and already aching wound.
That warm, brisk spring day, they had witnessed, first hand the slaying of Miss Gastrell’s own mother. They had seen it, felt it, heard it, nay, even smelled it.
And it was tattooed to their memories.
Forever.
 


 


Tuesday, October 8, 2013

A Pretty Streetwalker--MJ Horror Story Exclusive!

Prostitution. It’s the world’s oldest profession. As long as there have been women, there have been women selling their “wares” for money. No matter the town, big or small, there, somewhere, is a red light district with these women. Very often it’s the same story, told over and over and for one man, it’s the last story he’d ever want to hear.




A Pretty Streetwalker
A Michael Jackson Horror Story By:
Tiffeny



The Philips Hotel
Downtown Los Angeles
May 9th, 1982


It was a wild frantic scene outside that old hotel on that balmy summer night.
A few dozen people, of the sleazoid set: hookers, winos and drug addicts were crowding around and gazing on at the scene unfolding.
Several police cars were parked haphazardly on the street, red and blue lights flashing, sires screaming into the night.
Police milled on the sidewalk doing their best to keep the rejects of the city from getting underfoot, some conversing into walkie-talkies.
Wee-ooh! Wee-ooh! Wee-ooh!
Over the din caused by the police cars, an ambulance came to a slick halt outside the building and almost automatically, two medics leapt out, taking the gurney with them and rushing past the cops and on into the rickety old building.
“Stay back…I said stay back! Don’t make me club you out here!”
Officer Carl Withers was threatening as some of the crack heads weren’t really cooperating with him.
“Aw, you ain’t gonna do a damn thing, Brother!” A crack head, skinny and toothless taunted, but did move back a few paces.
He knew better than to mess with Carl who was nearly seven feet tall and three hundred pounds, if he was an inch and ounce.
“Hey Carl!” At the call, the cop turned and saw one of the friends on the force, Johnny Ringwald approaching him, clipboard in hand.
“What’s going on man? What’s the problem? All I got from headquarters was that there was a disturbance.” Johnny, a tall--though not as tall as Carl, and a bit wiry wondered, standing beside him.
“I don’t know, man. All I heard was that the guy who owned this place rented a room to some guy for the night and about an hour later he started screaming his head off. We don’t know if he’s high on something or just plain loony.”
Carl began to explain when suddenly over all the noise of the night they could hear a man screaming shrilly.
“She’s dead! She’s dead! She died! She died! Blood! Blood everywhere! Oh my God! Help me!”
A moment later, the medics reappeared and were pushing their gurney.
Strapped to it and flailing wildly against the restraints, was a young man in a dingy white t-shirt, and blue jeans, a royal blue satin bomber jacket draped over his lap.
He was shoeless, a hole in one of his socks.
Large, dark doe eyes focused on the officers as he was wheeled past them.
“Blood! Blood! She’s dead! Help me! Police! Help! Please!” He begged as tears sprang from his eyes and were streaming down his reddened cheeks.
Carl and Johnny looked on solemnly as the man was hoisted up into the back of the ambulance and the doors slammed on him.
A third officer, short and stocky, Chester Bailey appeared, a clipboard of his own in his hands.
“Hey, you guys, we got a little information on that kid.” He announced and started to look at his board.
“Yeah, you caught the one that flew over the cuckoo’s nest!” Johnny exclaimed and he and Carl laughed heartily.
“Be serious for five damn seconds, will ya?” Chester grumbled glaring Johnny and Carl with agitation.
The two men did quiet down, but their eyes flashed with amusement.
“We found I.D. on that kid. Name’s Michael Jackson. I don’t think that kid’s high or insane. His I.D. says he’s from Encino--good neighborhood too.”
“Then what was he going ape-sh*t bonkers for, then? If he’s clean?” Carl inquired  and was scratching at his bald head with curiosity.
“My guess is he was chasing the “muff” around and else saw or did something that spooked the hell out of him. That kid--he’s scared. I could see it in his face. Whatever he saw or did, it’s gotten the best of him.”
Removing the shades he wore--though it was dark--Johnny squinted at Chester and stated,
“Now, I wonder just what happened….”

The Previous Afternoon

As the day’s last strains of sunlight were turning to dusk, just before night was to settle in, a car appeared on the horizon.
Easing along the cracked and crumbled concrete on the seedy side of town, it was instantly apparent to anyone looking on that the car was out of place.
In a place where the median income was less than ten thousand dollars annually, the car was a piece of misplaced luxury.
A deep grey, Rolls Royce Coupe pulled to a halt at an abandoned street corner, where the burnt and charred remains of what had been a liquor store stood.
As a drunkard, his booze concealed in a brown paper bag stumbled by, staring at the car, the door opened.
Michael Jackson, seated in the front passenger seat, peered out nervously, as he’d never been that deep in the underbelly of the city.
“Fellas…I…I don’t know if I want to do this…” He said nervously, and was running a shaking hand through his short black tendrils.
“You should have thought about that before your little happy ass pulled the short straw!” Michael’s older brother Jackie, guffawed from where he sat behind the steering wheel.
Three more of Michael’s brothers, Tito, Jermaine and Randy were laughing from the backseat.
“Yeah Mike! Get out the car before someone steals the hubcaps!” Jermaine ordered, evoking the car to crow and was shoving Michael’s shoulder in an effort to make him exit the car.
“I’m going! I’m going! Stop!” Slapping at Jermaine’s hand, Michael timidly slipped from the car and was closing the door.
“Now remember, we’ll be back for you in three hours, Bro.” Jackie pointed.
“Yeah, and you better have some proof! Or we’ll dump you right here all over again!” Tito declared and Randy was waving in amusement.
With that, the car pulled off, tires squealing.
And Michael was alone.
Standing there, he watched the cars tail lights in the distance.
After a moment, the realization of the situation hit him and anguished he covered his face with his hands.
He couldn’t believe it. He had no idea how he’d even gotten talked into this cockamamie scheme.
It had all started at Jermaine’s house.
He and his brothers had all been sitting around, shooting the breeze and knocking back root beers. Just talking and carrying on like brothers do.
Somehow the conversation had come around to outrageous stunts they had pulled in their youth--though none of them were over the age of thirty, really.
There was the time Tito had eaten one hundred large marshmallows on a dare. (And puked immediately after swallowing the last one.)
Or how Jermaine tried to give himself a home perm and burned all the hair off his head.
Silly, wild things.
It had been young Randy that came up with the idea:
Drawing straws to see who would come into city to solicit the “services” from a lady of the night.
Michael had no clue as to what the hell possessed him to reach up and grab a straw. He didn’t believe in prostitutes and usually felt sorry for the women who felt that they had to sell their bodies for a little bit of change.
He was a bit disappointed in his brothers for even considering the idea.
So he’d nearly passed out for dead when he came up holding the short straw.
Actually he had passed out.
And when he came to, he was already halfway to Los Angeles, his brothers hooting that Michael was about to “get busy”.
Standing there on the corner, next to the skeleton of a building, Michael finally lowered his hands and grumbled.
How was he going to pick a hooker? He’d never done such a thing in his life.
Hell, he had trouble picking “good” girls to ask on dates!
He’d never thought of such a thing in his life.
Pacing in a small circle, Michael worried to himself.
How was he going to pay the woman? How was he going to protect himself from any of the multiple diseases that these women could possibly be crawling with?
It was all so frightening. Especially the idea of VD. He didn’t want to get sick or have important body parts suddenly fall off.
Michael was so unprepared for that.
Or so he thought.
Shoving his hands in to the pockets of his blue satin jacket, Michael was surprised to feel wads of paper in his pocket.
Pulling out the wads, Michael was surprised to see that his brothers had actually had the nerve to stuff his pockets with the essentials--a hundred and fifty dollars, and a little strip of prophylactics.
Michael made a mental note to break all his brothers noses if he survived the night.
Standing there, looking at the paper in his hands, Michael hatched a quick scheme of his own.
He was going to find a streetwalker, a clean looking one if possible, and pay her to just sit with him. Just sit and talk with him until time was up.
No using his body or her body or breaking any moral codes.
Yeah, that would work. It had to.
Straightening his shoulders and hopefully looking confident enough to avoid being mugged, Michael started on his way down the street, towards an adult theatre where a bunch of people, and possible hookers, were loitering.
Easing over, near the front of the theatre, trying to be inconspicuous as possible.
Lord what would his mother have said about him being out there?
Where the attractions being shown that night were entitled The Glory Hole, Golden Shower, and League of Super Freaks?
Michael tried to quickly banish the thought as a drunken pair of men, both warbling How Dry I Am, came stumbling by, throwing their empty bottles to the ground, causing them to shatter.
“Hey Baby Boy, looking for a date?”
Startled by the sudden question, Michael turned and found he was no longer alone.
Standing there, and grinning at him with a mouth full of chipping gold teeth was a hooker. 
And looking at her was causing Michael’s stomach to turn.
The woman was skinny, like she hadn’t eaten in several weeks, and her poor, malnourished body was just barely covered in a dingy blue dress, that dipped low in the front and was high in the hemline.
The look might have been sexy, had the woman had a body. But since she was built like a ten year old boy, the effect was completely lost. Not to mention all the scars and pockmarks covering her body.
She looked like she had been through ‘Nam. And lost.
Plus the little bit of hair on her head was moving.
“No…no thank you. I’m fine. Bye!” Michael gasped, scared and was running away quickly a few other prostitutes shouting catcalls and whistling after him.
“I bet you’re gay anyway!” The dejected hooker yelled after him angrily.
After he had ran for about a block, Michael stopped and was crazily scratching at his scalp thinking he was now dripping with lice just after talking to that woman.
Feeling hopeless, Michael looked around at his surroundings.
He was in front of an adult bookshop--how the hell did his brothers even know places like this existed?--and still alone.
None of the women he saw looked like anything he’d dream of touching, all beat up, and scarred looking. Walking cases of VD probably. All in all, he just felt sorry and pitied these women.
Downtrodden, he lowered his head and was kicking after the extinguished cigarette butts on the glass littered sidewalk.
“You look lonesome Honey…want a friend?”
A soft, sultry voice cooed and caught Michael’s attention.
Head bobbing up, Michael had never noticed the streetwalker standing on side of the building, smoking a cigarette.
Michael put his hand to his throat, taken aback by the woman’s appearance.
After seeing a dozen dames who looked like they’d been dragged a mile on their faces, this woman was nothing like them.
She was…beautiful.
She was very tall and slender, with pale, smooth skin, ringlets of long black hair and almond shaped, honey colored eyes. Her body was clad attractively in a gold camisole, that dipped in the front, displaying her ample cleavage, and a pair of red spandex pants hugged every curve on her lower body.
She was heavily made up, but still alluring. Not tacky in any way.
The woman looked young, close to Michael’s age, if she was even twenty.
Drawn, almost entranced by the pretty streetwalker, Michael found himself approaching her.
She was so pretty, her pouted lips curling around her cigarette as she took another puff. And she smelled nicely too. Her cigarette smelled of vanilla and her body, of peppermints.
She did appear “clean”.
“Hi…” He said nervously. “Um…how much?”
The woman paused to blow a smoke ring in the air, and chuckled,
“Slow down, Speed Demon. We’ve got all night. I’m Aura.”
“Hi Aura…I’m Michael.” He introduced himself.
Shaking ashes from her ciggy, Aura wondered,
“Now what exactly do you want. A straight is seventy-five--”
“I don’t want to…you know…” Michael, suddenly embarrassed discussing such matters stammered.
“Baby, I’m not selling Girl Scout cookies out here…” Aura tittered, and finishing her cancer stick, tossed it to the ground, mashing it under the spiked heel of her gold stiletto.
“I know…you see…” Michael was still stuttering. “You don’t have to do anything with me. Just sit with me and talk to me for a while. Keep me company. Please I have a hundred dollars. You can have it. Just, let’s sit somewhere.” (He reserved the last fifty for the hotel room…was he really doing this?)
He managed, and grasped Aura’s cool, smooth hand in his.
Aura looked Michael up and down, seeming to contemplate the idea of just sitting with a “client”.
“Well you don’t look very much like Jack the Ripper.” She giggled seductively and was placing her arm through Michael’s.
“I know a place about two blocks from here. We can sit and…talk there.”
It was a silent walk as Michael and Aura made their way to a run down tenement, The Philips Hotel.
As they got to the door, Aura hung back.
“You get the room, Michael. If the man that owns the place sees me before you get it, he might not let you have it. He doesn’t like tramps.” She warned.
Leaving Aura at the door, Michael apprehensively entered the battered lobby of the hotel.
Seated behind the counter, and deep into a set of racing forms, Juan Garcia, a thick, lumbering man sat, a smoking cigar hanging from his thin lips.
As Michael got to him, he merely barked, in a light Spanish accent.
“How long you stayin’ Amigo?”
“Um, just the night.” Michael remarked, still not really connecting in his mind just what he was doing.
“Twenty dollars--Room 213.”
As soon as Michael got the little key in his hand, Aura was on his arm, and pulling him upstairs.
Michael was kind of emotionally checking out as he and Aura entered the room. 
(Was he really there? With a streetwalker? A hooker? )
The room was horrendous. A bare bulb swinging from the ceiling, a little cot of a bed with bed clothes that needed to be burned.
And was that REALLY a dead rat in the corner?!!!!?
“So, I’m on your dime now.” Aura spoke up and much to Michael’s disgust, she went an sat on the edge of the dirty bed.
“Yeah…” Michael sighed and was shoving his fists into the pockets on his jeans. He remained standing and made a note to throw his shoes away once he got home.
“Well since you wanna talk, Michael…tell me about yourself. What do you do? How old are you? Where you from?” Aura produced another cigarette and lighter out her cleavage, and was smoking.
“I’m twenty-three. From Encino--”
“Encino, classy. I got a little rich boy.” Aura teased and was letting another smoke ring off into the air.
‘Yeah.” Michael nodded, still nervous. Would he ever be calm again?
“I own a dance studio.”
“Really?” Aura spoke, smoke seeping from her mouth. “I wanted to be a dancer--before I got into this racket.”
“How did you end up doing this?” Michael questioned, then added. “If you don’t mind.”
“I don’t mind. I answered an ad in the paper. I’m from Salina, Kansas. Saw an ad looking for dancers. I thought it was legitimate. Turns out it was in a nudie bar. I didn’t have any money or anything to last on, so I had to take the gig. Then I met this guy…” Aura paused to take another drag off her cancer stick. “Now he’s my pimp.”
“But you’re so pretty.” Michael commented coming over to her and grabbing her hand again. “You seem so nice. You shouldn’t be doing this. No woman should. It’s not a good thing.”
“Tell me something I don’t know.” Aura flicked ashes on the floor. “I don’t like doing this you know. I’m only twenty years old. I know its not a good thing. I’m just trying to survive, man.”
Going over to Aura, and jumping as a large cockroach scampered over his foot, Michael placed his hands on her thin shoulders.
“Do you want to go home? Do you want to go back to Kansas? If you want to, I’ll send you back. I’ll get you a plane ticket or a bus ticket or something for you to go back home.” He offered softly, not able to bear this woman’s pain any longer.
Aura stared up at Michael, her light eyes wide with surprise.
“You--you’d do that for me?” She whispered and Michael was delighted to see tars of joy in her eyes.
“Yes. You seem like a good person, and you need to get away from this…”racket” as you put it.”
“Thank you…my…my people are good people. Hardworking people. Churchgoing. They don’t know I do this.” Aura, ashamed hung her head.
“They don’t need to.” Michael, placing a warm hand under her chin replied. “You just need to go home, and be safe again.”
Aura went to say more, but suddenly stopped.
Her lovely eyes bugged and a choking sound escaped her mouth as it dropped open.
Aura?” Alarmed, Michael jumped back as the woman dropped her cigarette and placed both hands to her neck choking.
Michael went to grab her, to start the Heimlich maneuver, but stopped when a new sight caught his eyes.
A bright red liquid began spilling from between Aura’s fingers.
Blood.
Fresh, hot blood.
Running through her hands and down onto the cleavage that had lured Michael to her in the first place.
Oh…oh my God!” Michael put his hands to his mouth backing away, frightened, as Aura began trembling on the bed.
Right before Michael’s eyes, some how more wounds began opening all over her chest and abdomen, blood spilling from them.
“What’s going on! What’s happening! Aura! Help! Help!”
Too shattered to make a break for the door, Michael was instead, backing into a corner and drawing himself up into a scared ball of flesh as Aura stood, staggered and was rocking as if some unseen force was rattling her.
Blood was oozing from her nose and mouth and she was gurgling as she was drowning in her own bodily fluids.
Right before Michael’s widened and flittering eyes, Michael saw that a gash opened on Aura’s abdomen and her insides, her very guts were falling out onto the floor with a sickening splat.
Her intestines were stretched halfway across the room!
Aaaaaaah!” Michael screamed shrilly and his throat burned from the effort. “What’s happening to you? What’s going on? Help! Help! Somebody! Anybody! Please! She’s dying! She’s dying!”
Covering his face with his hands, Michael was trying to crawl away, get away.
Get help. He needed help.
Needed to get away from this heinous scene unfolding before him.
Something was evil in that room. And it was killing Aura!
It was then he heard a disheartening, loud THUD, right close to his feet.
His curiosity getting the better of him in one moment, Michael uncovered his face, and saw the last thing he wanted to in his lifetime.
There at his feet, was Aura’s severed head, the eyes rolled back, seeing nothing, mouth agape in a scream unheard.
Across the room, her disemboweled body was hanging limply off the edge of the bed, blood staining the sheets and pooling under it.
DEAR GOD! Help! Help! Help!” Michael shrieked, sobbing uncontrollably before everything went black.
Help me! Help me! HELP!”

Late the Following Day
Los Angeles Police Department


Officer Carl Withers sat in the break room of the precinct enjoying some half stale donuts and a paper cup of steaming black coffee.
It had been a long day, and all he could think off was punching his time card in a couple of hours and going home to his wife.
“Should have known I’d find you here.” A happy voice remarked and Officer Johnny Ringwald entered the room, pausing to pour himself a cup of java.
“Where else would I be? Trying to boost myself. After going through the ringer with that whack job this morning--” Carl started, and Johnny, sipping his drink put up his hand.
“I wanted to talk to you about that.” Johnny went over and took a seat across the little table from his friend. “I was talking with Chester as I was filling out the paperwork on this. He was right. That Jackson kid was clean. No drugs, no alcohol. The strongest thing in his system was root beer. Apparently the only reason he was in that place at all was cause he lost some bet with his brothers. We still don’t know why he went nuts though.”
“No?” Carl wondered and was eating the last of his donut.
“Well, I think I might have something, but it’s a bit farfetched, mind you.” Johnny sighed deeply and was absently playing with the shiny badge attached to his shirt.
“I was looking into that building where Jackson went crazy. And it seems that in 1978, in the same room he was in, Room 213, a prostitute was murdered in there.”
“No! Really?” Carl, interested was leaning into his friend.
Johnny nodded. “A young girl named Laura Epstein. Went by Aura on the street. Kid from Kansas. The way the case report went, the girl was planning to go back home when her pimp, some low life named Izzy Moreno, got wind of it, and butchered the girl to pieces. Sad, really.”
Seeing where Johnny was going, Carl cleared his throat.
“You don’t mean to tell me you think that Jackson kid was trying to entertain a ghost? Johnny really--” He laughed and offended, Johnny slapped the table top.
“Look, I’m telling you what the hell I see: The kid picked up a hooker. Took her to room 213 where another hooker got brutally killed. The owned of the place said he got the room alone. He didn’t see a woman. And now that Jackson kid is in a padded cell in the mental ward over at Cedars-Sinai. And all he keeps hollering is ‘She’s dying! Blood! Blood!’” What the hell else you want me to think Carl. I know it sounds crazy…” Johnny clasped his hands together an gulped. “You don’t think….”
“That the boy got spooked by the ghost of a pretty streetwalker?” Carl reached and patted the man’s shoulder.
“This is real life…not a horror movie.”
Johnny glared at his friend and remarked,
“That may be, but truth is stranger than fiction!”

THE END

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Clark vs. George


Hey Y'all!

A few days ago, I had a very interesting conversation with my friend Lulu. If you read my blogs, you know she's my friend in France with whom I proudly co-president The Marlon Jackson Fan Club.
Anyway, we were chatting and shooting the breeze and somehow I got around to telling her about this new story I'm researching and working on. And I was going through, showing her pictures of people who I had based my character's appearances off of.

One of my characters was based, physically, on one of my favorite actors, Mr. George Brent.
(I wrote a blog a while back, detailing how much I love this man! )

And as Lulu looked at, she said something I did not expect,

"Tiffeny, he looks like that guy from Gone with the Wind".

I instantly said,

"Don't say that!"

She meant actor--and King of the Movies, so they say--Mr. Clark Gable.

It bothered me a bit, because I actually prefer George Brent over Clark Gable. But more than that, by the early 1930s, when George was first starting to tip-toe into Hollywood, he was actually marketed as "The NEXT Clark Gable", as a tall, swarthy, dark haired, blue eyed lover.

Here's Proof: From Photoplay magazine, June 1932

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It is begging people not to compare the two actors. But both were quite similar in a way.
Clark Gable was from England and crossed the pond to America in the twenties. George Brent was from Ireland and also came to America in the 1920s.
Believe it or not, George and Clark actually knew each other before Hollywood. Both had played together in a Broadway show.
After the show closed, Clark came to Hollywood and people seemed to salivate over his tea cup-eared self. Some years later when George came along, he was put into all sorts of pictures with big names, like Ruth Chatterton (whom he married), Bette Davis (whom he had an affair with and starred in THIRTEEN  pictures with.), Kay Francis and Ginger Rogers, just to name a few.
But Clark was highly regarded and while after the success of Gone with the Wind, he remained prominent, George drifted into B-movies, and eventually from the public completely.
He married five times and died of emphysema in 1979.

Now I have watched films by both men. I have a copy of Gone with the Wind, with Clark, and Dark Victory with George. Both films came out in 1939. Now in 1938, George acted in a similar film with Bette Davis called Jezebel.

Call it blasphemy, but I would have preferred him over Clark Gable.
George as Buck Cantrell. (Jezebel was shot in Black and White)

Clark Gable as Rhett Butler in Gone with the Wind.

I recently read a blog in which a lady basically said aside from a pretty face and decent body, George was emotionless as an actor. I must disagree. I don't see it. But I suppose the cards were stacked against him. He never really was "George". He was a poor man's "Clark". And that's quite unfortunate. Because I think he was much more handsome than Clark.


George with Ruth in Female.


George with Kay in Living on Velvet.

George, Ginger, and Kay, around his throat. I swooned over this! He wasn't muscly but just big and broad and I dig that!

Judge for yourself:



Hot Damn! I see the resemblance. But Clark (right) with those ears kill me every time. I always imagined if a strong breeze hit him, he'd go airborne. I think that's why I like George. Clark's ears actually distracted me as he performed because they jutted out so.
George's laid naturally against his head.

That being said, I have watched a great deal of Clark's film's beyond GWTW. My particular favorite is Red Dust with Jean Harlow and Mary Astor. (20 years later, in the 50s, Clark played the same character in the remake, entitled Mogambo and starring Grace Kelly before she married Prince Rainier and became Princess Grace. )
NO ONE ASK ME HOW I KNOW ALL THIS, I JUST DO!

Clark and Jean--would you believe she was only 21 there?

Clark and Kelly--20 years later.

Okay I said all that to say this. I respect both of the men as actors. But while I like Clark simply as an actor, I was attracted to George. Anytime now on TCM when I hear mention of a George in a film, I literally will NOT move and have to see him!

And I just wanted to speak on the topic since I am a novice classic film buff.

(With the exception of Living in Velvet, I've watched every film I've mentioned in this post.)

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

I ALMOST GOT KILLED TODAY!

It's a rare thing that for me to make a second post to my blog in one day, but I just cannot ignore the chain of events that unfolded today and completely fucked me over.

I ALMOST GOT KILLED TODAY!

Now in order to get to the place where I saw the pitiful flashes of that I called my life going before my eyes, let's start at the beginning.
I rose at 8:30 this morning, as I do every dialysis day. So, I got up, got dressed, put on my face and rode out in the car to Jack in the Box with my dad. (With the way dialysis depletes me, I need someone to drive me back and forth)
I was short on funds, so instead of getting the sausage croissant I like, I got the breakfast jack. I wanted coffee with my jack. It was 9:30 in the morning. I don't think it was a farfetched request.
There was NO coffee ready. All they had was decaf and I'd sooner drink dishwater. So I had to stand around 15 minutes for my damn coffee. In the meantime, my sandwich got cold, but I ate it anyway.

I went to dialysis. And I pulled up at exactly 10 am. My on-time is 10:45 am. There's this man ahead of me named "Q". (Yeah, I'm named damn names!) And that bastard is a catastrophe coming and going. My dialysis access is in my left arm, and in general the dialysis machine is to the right of the person. Q makes them move the machine around to the left. This fucks me over, because they have TV's for the patients. With the machine in the way, I cannot . And you can't simply unplug, move and re-plug the machine. The machine would have to boot up and do all these tests again and it would take near on 30 minutes to do. So the nurses leave it as is. Then once he's done, you'd think Q would get the hell on. No, he wants to get up and walk around and socialize. Especially because he used to sleep with one of the nurses once upon a time...And he leaves all his shit in the chair, so the nurse can't clean the chair and ready it for me. 10:45 came and went, and at 11 I went out and  complained to my dad--who sits and waits in case something happens to me--to take me home.
I stayed.

It was around 11:15 before I got on. You'd think it would be fine from there. Three hours and one treatment later, I'm starting to have my blood returned to me--it circulates and cleans through the machine--one of the tubes refuses to send the blood back. Apparently there was an infiltration. and what an infiltration is, is when the needle pokes through the vein/vessel and blood leaks out into the tissues instead of through the vein/vessel. Oh, AND IT HURTS LIKE ALL GODDAMNED, PUS-SPEWING HELL! So I'm writhing in pain and finally get out of there.

I was hungry. A little tiny breakfast jack isn't enough to fill a child. I'm a woman. So a block down from the dialysis facility is a Chinese place. I like the lo mein. I went in and ordered food for me and dad. As I'm waiting, it begins to sprinkle. In the mean time, some fool gave my order to another customer and had to run him down to get it back. Thank God he didn't start eating it.
I get the food, and Dad is starting to drive us home.

The closer we get to the house, the worse the rain gets. It was so bad, all I could see was sheets of water. All Dad could see was sheets of water. Half the time, I didn't know what lane we were in or what side of the street we were on. IT WAS THAT EFFING BAD!
About a block from home, the car went over into the far lane and we literally came within inches of a collision. I was so scared, I was screaming, he was cussing.
My life was flashing before my eyes---there was ALOT of Michael Jackson--and I was scared to death. It was by the grace of God we got home in one piece. I was shaking, I got drenched trying to get in the house. It was a mess.

I wish I had stayed home in the bed under the covers!

New Horror For October....


 
 
 
BOO!


Hey Guys and Ghouls,

Well, it's that time of year again. It is officially October and you all know what means: Halloween is just around the corner! And the last few weeks, I have been putting down ideas for various MJ horror stories in preparation for it. I hope to write 3 to 4 new horror stories and have them up not only on my blog but also at the MJJUltimate fan forum.

Halloween is coming and let's not forget to add the Thriller to it. I want to touch on several different eras with MJ. Unlike my eroticas where I have to have Michael as an adult, with my horror stories, it's much looser, and I can have him as a child. In fact, a story I'm working on--I'm about 4 pages into it--concerns a very young Michael Jackson. I'm not going to disclose what he's going to do or what's going to happen to him because I'm not the type to spoil my stories ahead of time.

But I can guarantee this: Your electric bill might go up--you will sleep with the lights on! LOL.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Attaining the Feminine Mystique--PART ONE

Hey Y’all!

First of all, I want to thank everyone for the kind response I received after my previous post “A Return to Femininity”. It was not the kind of response I expected because I assumed people would find my form of nostalgia outmoded and old-fashioned. Just the opposite: it was embraced and praised.

And a friend of mine suggested that I divulge some of the “secrets” of days gone by that could be utilized to make a woman more “feminine”.

I will tell you, I’ve gone through over two thousand pages of old magazines, scouring everything from “help me” columns, to diet ads to extract and squeeze what I could decide to be used for the modern woman of 2013, though the base I used was suggested over eighty years ago.

And I will actually do this by sharing which tips I applied to MYSELF.

In this post I will supply three of several points that help towards the goal of the Feminine Mystique.


1) FIGURE.

Well, y’all, some things never change. Unfortunately, even the oldest magazine that I have in my possession, from July 1926, has ads in it for diets, and diet supplements, and even diet soap. You have to take it as this: Men and women appreciate a nice beautiful body. The only difference between now and 80 years ago, is that the definition of a “beautiful” body has changed quite dramatically. 80 years ago, in 1933, one of the most beautiful bodies belonged to an actress named Jean Harlow, whom, until her untimely death at the age of 26 in 1937, reigned as the first real female “sex symbol” of Hollywood. And Jean was known for her particularly curvy, soft, and voluptuous body. The “Skinny Minnie” woman of today was seen as blatantly unattractive. No woman wanted to be caught dead as a stick with hair. Really, does a man really want to hug and touch skin and bones? NO. He wants to touch boobies and booty and enjoy it. (That’s if he’s got a decent brain working in his skull, and other parts working in his pants.)


(Jean in a swimsuit. As you can see, she girl had a "real" body! She actually got plumper as her career progressed)

On the same note, no woman wanted to be entirely overweight either. We now know the health complications from too much of a good thing. Diabetes, hypertension, heart disease, et cetera. In my previous post, I stated the amazing menu in which a woman could lose weight.

I did see two or three articles aimed at what “Photoplay” magazine’s health guru Sylvia called “Skinnies” (she unfortunately called the fat women “Fatties”!) and according to Sylvia, it was suggested that skinny women were nervous creatures who needed to eat properly, sleep, and have a moderate amount of exercise.

(Just a side note, I don’t believe that. When I was tipping scales at 260 pounds, I was just as keyed up then as I am now at 165--I lost five pounds I discovered at a recent doctor’s visit!!!)

But this is what was prescribed to the Skinny trying to put on “Firm Flesh”.

There was no eating of candy and crap and pizza and fast food. In 1933, McDonald’s did NOT exist! And there was exercise prescribed.

Most of the exercises she prescribed were designed to build up the bust, arms and shoulders. Such as doing the breaststroke swim move to enlarge the breasts. (I’m doing this, if it works, I’ll reveal in the future.) also the rest of the body. It was not to just be slender, but curvy. And LOOK like a woman.

This is to GAIN weight so if you’re trying to take off poundage, do NOT do this!


General Building Up Diet:

~~Breakfast~~

Big glass of orange or grape fruit juice.

Twenty minutes later

Dish of hominy with ripe sliced bananas and certified milk and sugar.

Coffee or tea with sugar and cream.

Toast with plenty of butter and jam.

(Two hours before lunch, drink a big glass of tomato juice if possible)


((Author’s Note: To be honest, most days I do NOT eat breakfast. I tend to eat sparingly, which would make Sylvia sit up and howl, I’m sure, as she stressed plenty of nutritious, healthy foods))


~~Luncheon~~

Bowl of thick soup.

(Cream of mushroom or Cream of tomato or Cream of celery or Thick vegetable soup or Chicken okra with rice or noodles.)

Green salad and often half an avocado.

Spaghetti (with butter — allowed to melt after the food is off the fire).

Egg noodles (with butter).

Chocolate or rice or bread pudding or Cup custard or Stewed fruits with cream.

Bottle of certified milk. (In the middle of the afternoon a glass of

milk.)


~~Dinner~~

Fruit cocktail.

Soup (cream or clear).

Any sort of meat that is broiled or roasted, and gravy; but skim off the fat—it's hard to digest.

Two vegetables (creamed or with butter, and put the butter on after the vegetables are done. Use plenty).

Glass of milk

Cup custard or Ice Cream or Pudding.

(Beware of pies unless you are sure you can digest them.)

Sylvia also prescribes plenty of sleep.



((Author’s Note: Now to tell the truth, Sylvia would probably make millions off of me because I eat like a hummingbird and I just don’t sleep like a normal human being. I wake 6-7 times every night and drink coffee by the gallon.))


But 80 years ago, there was a fixation on a youthful, healthy appearance. Bright eyes, glowing skin, shiny hair. Not this half-starved, looked like you just escaped from a concentration camp sort of look that rules the roost now. I know I will NEVER be a stick. I come from big, stocky people. It just ain’t in my DNA to be a stick.

But I do try to keep my figure lines pleasant. I don’t want to look so fragile a man is scared to touch me for fear something will break.

And once you get that figure--I realize it is harder for some than others, based on genetics and things of the sort--you’ll want to show off the results.

That leads me to my next point.


2) MAKEUP

In the 1930s, it was made out that every woman, unless she was Amish, wore some form of make up to accent her features. And today, that hasn’t changed a particle. Women still use cosmetics to accent what God gave them and hide what they don‘t like that was given to them,. LOL.

I am a particular stickler for my make up. I simply will not leave my house unless my “face” is on just right. It’s just a part of my personality that is there. That is literally the first thing I do in the morning, grab a cup of coffee for breakfast, clean up and stumble to my make up. And in the 30s, make up was advertised as helping women bring out and show off their “charm” and “allure”. in a culture that emphasized getting a man and marrying him, looking your best to hook that man was essential.

It does something to me when I see a pretty woman with nothing on to enhance herself. Now I know every woman can’t do it. Some might have a house full of babies to tend to or can’t afford it. That’s fine, and I respect those circumstances. But if a woman CAN afford it and has the time, by all means, do it damn it!

I make up my face and my products were all bought at Walgreens and on the CHEAP.

I’ll tell the truth, what I use on my face daily is this:

Eye shadow primer: 9.00

Face powder 9.00

Eye shadow from palate of 100, 10.00

Bronzer 8.00 (I use very little of this and so it lasts.)

Blush 6.00 (I use so little it’s lasted me a YEAR)

Liquid lipstick 3.00

Eyeliner 1.00

Mascara 7.00

All of that for a grand total of 53 dollars! And I did not buy it all at once. The most expensive thing in my make up arsenal is a large brush I bought for 21 dollars to apply the bronzer.

And depending on what I do, I am done in less than 30 minutes tops--and that’s if I’m going out to an important event too!

Now like I say, every woman may not be out to attract a man (or a woman if that’s the way you swing) but, I think its nice when a person gets complimented on their appearance or hit on. I don’t care who you are or THINK you are, you puff up a bit if someone says “Gosh, you look nice.” or “Hey, you’re pretty.”

I do.

And I’ve had some people complain that they don’t know how to put on make up or keep it on or what colors to use.

You got two options baby, run over a make up counter in the mall and get instruction from a trained beauty specialist, or do like I did: Trial and Error.

You’re looking at a girl who tried to wear a frosted red lipstick, never again.

I do have a background in beauty pageants, but I did not get proper instruction on how to apply my face. It was impossible to, when you’re up at 6 AM in a room crowded with a dozen other girls in robes and curlers waiting for her turn to be made up.

Most often all the woman would ask what color my dress or costume was and a coordinating shade went on my face and I was dragged away by my mother to get put into my dress. Most often my dress was white and I’d have silver eye shadow.

That’s it. Sometimes a lady who made me up would have twenty other girls to do. It wasn’t time for a consultation.

The point is no matter how “ugly” a girl may think she is, she has something to her face that can be made a focal point. Her eyes her cheeks, her lips.

Something. Sure some chicks are prettier. Some are “uglier” that’s what makes the world go around.

Some people whine they want men to talk to them, be attracted to them. Well, hell give them something to look out. Give them something to say, “Wow, dig that girl, let me holler at her.”

I’m sorry, men are basic creatures. They’re like magpies, if something is sparkly, it catches their attention.

I’m not saying spackle it on like Bozo the clown but accentuate what God gave you. He gave it to you for a reason! You have to try. It’s not something that comes easily. It takes practice. It took me a long while to find a groove for what looked well and nice on me. I still can’t apply lipstick properly! It varies from woman to the next what works on her.

I’m brown skinned with black hair and brown eyes. What works for me will NOT work for my friend Stacie who is medium skinned, with hazel eyes and (last times I checked) blonde hair. What works for her will NOT work for my friend Lulu, who is fair skinned with dark brown hair and green eyes.

To each her own. Within each hair/skin/eye color combo, there is a bit of wiggle room. My friend Ebonie is brown skinned--lighter than me, but darker than Stacie--with dark eyes and dark hair. What works on me might not work on her.

You have to figure it out.

That leads me to my third point of this post.


3) COLORS
Brace yourselves kids…this is another of those Trial and Error type things. Women, unless they are in a nudist colony, cannot walk around naked. Men would like it, but it’s just not so. And before you go digging in that damn closet, consider the coloring of your clothing. Does it compliment your complexion? Does it add to your looks? Does it bring color into your face or accent it? Consider this. Your clothing should do more than just cover your ass or show off your figure. It does nothing, if your clothes have good lines, but the color disagrees with your complexion. It’s like tying two cats together by their tails: it’s a disaster.

This is actually something I learned in my pageant experience. The wrong color of a costume, I’ve seen, can cost a girl her crown. And in normal life, it can make or break an outfit.

The safe bets for girls in pageants were a white dress. If you were a white girl, it accented your tan, hair and eye color, if you were black, or some other form of “color” it showed off your color. Pink is popular, as long as it agreed with a complexion.

For instance the same baby pink dress you’d put on a fair, blonde, blue eyed child, would not work for the olive skinned, dark child. And vice versa.

There is a wide variety of color and within that, is much room for error. I don’t care how attractive the color of a garment is, slip it on your body and see if it works for you. I once saw a beautiful mint green leather jacket in the mall. It was gorgeous with silver studding all over it. I had to have it. I grabbed it and ran to the dressing room with it. I slipped it on and gagged.

I looked like Shrek. It was terrible. It sucked all the color out of my skin, and was just a disaster. I threw it back on the rack. Had it been darker, a Kelly or Hunter green, it would have worked on my complexion. Now my friend Lulu, who is paler, would have looked like a damn rock star in that jacket! And with her green eyes… she’d have shut it down.

But it wasn’t a mistake I could risk, especially not for 160 dollars! LOL.

There are some colors though, that when applied correctly, do work universally:

(Neutrals)

Grey

Black

Brown

Taupe/Tan

White

(Semi-Neutrals)

Army/Dark Green

Navy Blue

Burgundy/Maroon

And in the color, pay attention to the intensity. Generally, I think of this: the darker a woman, the more intensity she can use in her clothing.

Let’s take me and my friend Lulu again.

We love The Jacksons, and run a club for Marlon. Let’s say, for instance, we both want to attend a Jacksons show and decide to coordinate in blue dresses.

I’d pick something along the lines of a navy or cobalt blue. Lulu can take a Baby or French Blue, which is much lighter. (Lulu is actually French, so she might find that French Blue working for her complexion hilarious.) But since Lulu has particularly dark hair, the navy or cobalt, in the right saturation would work for her. Too dark and it may age her and she’s very young.

And don’t think this color thing is only a woe for a woman. Men have to be picky about their colors, too.

I used to admire Michael Jackson for his clothing choices. As his skin grew progressively lighter, he would wear bold, saturated colors. Even his black clothes were rich, which he could carry well, though he was extremely fair, but had very black hair and brows and at times, black facial hair.

I usually agreed and loved everything he tossed on.

One choice that still bothers to this day, I never understood, was he visited some place and wore a light, pale, baby blue and black jacket. I wanted to crawl out of my skin when I saw him. The blue was a mess and brought an odd, yellow cast to Michael. He looked like a lemon in it, he was so sallow. The was nothing different. He was the same. Same hair, same complexion, same make up, just the color of the jacket clashed with his skin. I didn’t see HIM, I saw what the jacket was doing to him and wanted to yank it off his slim ass and burn it.

When he stopped wearing it--he made 2 or 3 appearances in it--I was happy.

Ladies, please consider and try different colors. Have fun with it. The whole point of is this for you to enjoy yourself and explore and bring out the best YOU there is. If you do make a mistake, it’s not the end of the world. No one is perfect.

One word of advice, though. If you do drastically change your hair color-- more than two shades in either direction--it will impact your clothing AND make up choices.

Also if you were tanner in warmer months and pale out in cooler ones, consider your choices again.

I bring this post to a close with one word of advice. Remember, if you do decide to make yourself over--as I am in the process of doing--make sure that everything you do, be it change your hairstyle, make up or clothing, the most important person who has to like it is YOU. You have to wear what you buy and what you do to yourself. If YOU don’t like it, YOU will be miserable. (And anything else that comes along, a date, a fiancé, a spouse, compliments, et, cetera, are all gravy on top.)

My next post will highlight more points of attaining the Feminine Mystique.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

A Return to Femininity

Hey Y’all,

I believe for the greater part of my life, if not all of it, I have lived in a bit of a time warp. I seemed to have always been a generation or so behind my contemporaries. I am 27 years old, which I am not the least bit ashamed to admit, and was born in 1986. But from the moment I came into the world, I was thrown back at least twenty years. I have very vivid memories from the earliest years of my life, of sitting on the floor in my mother’s bedroom, eating Cheerios right out the box and watching such television shows as “Batman”, “Get Smart”, “The Beverly Hillbillies”, “Bewitched” and “Gilligan’s Island”, all popular shows from the 1960s. I even watched “Dennis the Menace” which was filmed in the 1950s! I am the children of older parents. My father was 59 at the time of my birth and my mother was 35. My father was “Mr. Mom” as my mother was the “working stiff” in the family. And as a kid I naturally watched what my father watched, which was the likes of Charlie Chaplin, The Three Stooges and Laurel and Hardy.

And to this day, I know I have interests that are extremely and vastly varied from my peer group. I don’t have much care for anything to do with popular culture now, outside of that tiny Hispanic Pixie, Bruno Mars, who is quite cute. I rarely pay attention. I am more comfortable with old classic films, and actually schedule my month around the film schedule of Turner Classic Movies. (TCM).

I have always been fascinated by old films. Just the other night, TCM showed one of my favorite silent films--a German masterpiece called “Metropolis”. I was as excited for this film as my friends would have been about the new Tyler Perry movie.

I generally watch movies from the silent era to the 1980s--skipping the 1970s altogether. For a long time, I wasn’t quite sure what exactly drew me to films by the likes of Bette Davis, Barbara Stanwyck, and Joan Crawford.

It’s practically taken me a lifetime to figure out why and just recently my mind got the memo.

About a week ago, I discovered a fantastic website that scans of hundreds of old magazines, and I began reading my favorite--a very popular film/movie magazine called “Photoplay” that was at it’s height during the 20-50s. Never have I been happier than when I started to read this magazine. It covered the stars I held dear to my heart as their careers began, crested, and sadly, declined.


July 1926 cover with Dorothy Mackail!

In downloading the reading the first books--I pulled the latter issues from the year 1931--it dawned on me why I liked that era so much.

Ladies were ladies.

Not to say women aren’t ladies now, but it was very much apparent back in the 1930s. “Photoplay” was marketed to a mostly female clientele and in between articles on what Clark Gable did on vacation and what color Jean Harlow has dyed her hair, were numerous ads for hair, skin and makeup products, far more than you see in a magazine now. And they were arranged as articles, not just “Buy This Now!”

There were articles on not just dieting for plump and fat women, but body-building, weight-gaining meals for skinny girls. Can you imagine in this day and age an article about GAINING weight?

An underweight girl writing in for advice got this response:


Bessie: You are considerably underweight for you height. I think if you tried to gain weight, for a while, you would discover your whole figure will become more perfectly developed. Try eating fattening foods (!) drink milk and cream several times a day and get plenty of rest.
Every article I see now tells people to move, do this exercise, try this new piece of equipment. The only time a doctor advised me to relax is when I suffered heat exhaustion one day.

And this was advised as a “Dinner” for a woman trying to LOSE weight:


One Slice Cold Roast Lamb

Twp Heaping Tablespoons of Squash

Mint Sauce

One Tablespoon Green Peas

Medium Sized Tomato Salad

Mineral Oil or Vinegar

Two Small Biscuits

Half a Cantaloupe

One Glass of Skimmed Milk

How many women now would rather leap from the Empire State Building than do THAT?



(Just for the record, I don’t eat that much food in a DAY!)

((Although for the month of September I am adopting what I call the “Bette Davis Breakfast” which I read about her eating in 1932, regularly: It’s a cup of black coffee and a slice of raisin bread. I sweeten my coffee though. It’s just to prep for Fall and get the pesky five pounds I want to lose OFF. ))


Everything was aimed at making women dainty, and beautiful and helping them with catching a husband.

Do women nowadays even want to catch husbands?

To make the best of their curves. To HAVE curves rather than be moving sticks.

“Photoplay” even had a columnist who would tell girls what colors suited their hair, skin, and eye color the best. Even though, in 1931, it was targeted almost exclusively to white women, I could pull and take little bits for myself as a black woman. (They considered a “brunette” in those days to be a white woman with olive skin, black hair and brown eyes. My skin is just darker than olive. )

You just don’t see articles like that anymore. Telling women how to look their best, how to style their hair and what colors to wear and how to be popular with men without running out with open legs. How to flirt.

How to find a husband. You see more about how people are divorcing, rather than getting married. Or wanting to get married. It appeals to the old-fashioned woman in me I suppose. I would like to get married and be a mother to one or two kids. I would like to be pretty and have my husband happy to look at me and think he has a lovely little wife.

I don’t think I am a superficial person, its just in this day and age it does kind of bother me when I see some women who go out looking like what the cat dragged in and not seeming to care.

A woman doesn’t have to be decked out like she’s en route to a red carpet event, but I actually have moments when I look at other ladies and think, “My, what wonders a dab of lipstick would do for her” or “If only her clothes fit more properly.”

Perhaps women’s lib destroyed that bit of femininity in some women, I don’t know.

But I just like to try to accent my appearance as much as possible. Maybe it came from my younger years when I was fat and ugly and teased mercilessly over it. Maybe it is a way of ensuring I’m not teased, even as an adult. I don’t know, but I pause to take the time to do my make up, even if its for a run to the grocery store in jeans and a tee.

I’d rather have a man say “Hi Pretty Lady” instead of “Hey Lard-Ass” any day.

Is it such an awful thing to want one boyfriend, to want to know how to attract one and hold him with charm, rather than flopping through a line of nobodies? (And it would help if he had large, sumptuous lips like Marlon Jackson.) To attract some bumble bees, you gotta sprinkle on the honey.

What man wants an ugly woman, a woman who appears unkempt, and doesn’t look to care for herself?

I look away from men with saggy trousers, with their boxers peeking out, clean on a good day, with nappy kinky hair all over.

I don’t think I’m being a snob, but if I go hungry half the day and lose around 45 minutes of sleep a day to look good, my man should look halfway decent himself.

As terribly as I hate dialysis, I have my “face” on for it. Once I had to be there at 3 am. At 3 am before the cocks crowed, I was made up and waiting my turn.

I try to ignore the fact I am “ill” and try not to look “ill” by any means.

I don’t hate my appearance now, as some people would cry I put on makeup to hide myself. I am comfortably 165 pounds, down from 260 at my fattest. (And dieting off and on within a given month to maintain/lose.)

Without make up, I have my late mother’s face. And I think my late mother was a beautiful woman. (But every girl probably thinks her mother was beautiful) I will admit that, as I wore glasses from the time I was in the 3rd grade, I do have dark circles under my eyes. It’s a “flaw” I hide with a swipe of concealer each day.

Every so often I get compliments on my appearance, and it’s nice. And I see other women and wonder if they get compliments, would like to get them. It’s a kind boost to the mind and system.

But the most important thing, is I feel better about myself. I think I’m so drawn to the ladies of the bygone era because they looked like ladies. Sure they had a team of Max Factor stylists riding their asses, but I have seen pictures from that era of “normal” women, who worked normal jobs and had had normal families. They weren’t stars in any sense, were not rich and did housework themselves. And they still had their hair, nails and make up on, looking every bit as feminine as any Hollywood manufactured star.

Perhaps I’m backwards or a liability to women’s lib, but I want to be pretty. Does it really make a woman stupid if she powders her nose, applies lipstick and blush? I don’t think so.

I’m still as intelligent in jammies and Pond’s face cream, as I am with my face on.

I wish that there could be a return to femininity. There is a difference between being “feminine” and being “hot”.

I noticed all of the old ads used wording like “beautiful”, “alluring”, “dainty” , “enchanting” and “lady-like”.

There wasn’t a hot or sexy anywhere. Even at the mention of Jean Harlow and that woman was “sex” personified. (She was married and divorce twice before dying at the age of 26! And I can’t even get a damn date!)

Feminine is the kind of respectable woman that can be taken home to Mother. Not a woman who seems to only romp in the backseats of cars.

I don’t see that kind of respectability anymore. It makes me sad, because if I miss it now in 2013, what can I possibly say one day to my future daughter if it’s completely gone 5, 10 or 20 years from now?

It’s not backwards to be feminine, it’s more of…a privilege to a woman, I think. To take pride in herself and make what God gave them look its best. I think it shows a lady cares for herself.

And she has to care for herself, before anyone else will.

I just wanted to mention that, and I hope it makes some kind of modicum of sense.


(I like these old magazines immensely and may write more about them as I read through them. I’ve only loaded the latter half of 1926, all of 1927, and the latter half of 1932, as I particularly like films from those years. I‘ll load more soon, or as many was my USB flash drive will allow.)