Wednesday, December 11, 2013

How to BEAT The Baby Powder Challenge...

Hey Y'all,

As I like to frequent Youtube, I've become aware of this phenomenon wherein people take on the "challenge" of eating some substance, else in a spoon or in thier hand, etc. The Cinnamon Challenge, The Powdered Sugar Challenge, The Cornstarch Challenge...and some stuff that shouldn't even be EATEN.


That brings me to the Baby Powder Challege. I've seen a countless number of fools trying this on Youtube, all with the exception of Shoenice, having epic fails.

 
Now no normal human being will eat an entire DAMN bottle of powder and live--this man must be a superhero without a cape or something. And I suggest that no one else attempt that.
 
But if you want to beat the challenge and post a video to gloat to your buddies, PLEASE, do the following:
 
If you insist on eating the powder, TASTE IT FIRST. I've seen plenty of people whining and crying about the flavor of the powder. First of all powder goes on your ass, not in your mouth. But criminy, taste is first. Build up a tolerence to the taste is possible. This may take an amount of time.
 
And then there is the technique.
 
You are putting a powdered substance in your mouth. Do NOT tilt your damn head back, you will choke. Do NOT try to inhale/exhale through your mouth with the powder in your mouth. YOU WILL AXPHIXIATE, BREATHE IT INTO YOUR LUNGS AND DIE MISERABLY WITH LUNGS FILLING WITH FLUID.
 
What you do is this, pour desired amount of powder in hand/spoon, put it in your mouth. Immediately tilt your head forward. This will take the powder away from the throat/windpipe, and you can take a few shallow breaths THROUGH YOUR NOSE! NOT YOUR MOUTH! NOSE! NOSE! NOSE!
 
There's a nose with Michael Jackson attatched to it, so you remember. And I put Michael Jackson here, because it's my blog, and I wanted him in it. *coy smile*
 
You will produce saliva. Allow it to moisten/dampen the powder until it has the consistency of pancake batter. Swallow it.
 
Yay, you did it dingbat, and you're still alive! Did you film it? Film it and brag out as one of the few to beat the challenge.
 
I HAVE beat the challenge. And I'm still kicking. You're welcome.
 
DON'T CHOKE!

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Natural with a POP of Color!

Hey Y'all!

For a while, a few of my friends have asked me to provide a tutorial for some of the makeup looks I wear, and after a bit of thought, I decided to share one of the "easier" ones, for my friends who want to dip their toes into the cosmetics pool.

Here is the look you'll be recreating as shown on ME:

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Here are the TOOLS I used:

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Yes, I only used THREE brushes. The pink one is a Soho brand, regular eyeshadow blending brush, a Soho Kabuki brush, and I'm not sure of the brand of my poor busted blush brush! LOL!

The COSMETICS I used:

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Milani cream-to-powder in #03, Caramel Brown (I need more powder!), Wet n Wild Color Icon Bronzer in Bikini Contest, and Milani Baked Powder Blush in #09, Red Vino.
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Rimmel Mega Length Mascara in BLACK, Jordana eyeliner in Denim Blue and Black.
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Black Radiance Prismatic Color Lip Gloss in Rose Pearl.
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The "Night" drawer of a cosmetics set I bought from Ulta called "Day, Night and Fun". I'll be using the colors in the bottom row, the one to the right and in the middle. (A light, rich gold and a deep brown.)

Okay, let's get STARTED!

Now first, make sure you're doing this with a CLEAN face. I know it seems silly to mention but I've seen a lot of people, at Walmart particularly, who seem to ignore this fact of life. Any type of soap or cleanser of your choice is fine, just make sure it's not too drying or anything.
After washing, I usually apply a thin coast of Pond's Dry Skin Cream, in the winter months as I turn grey without it. (I skip this step in warmer months.)

And though this is used for the entire face, I only use Hard Candy's Sheer Envy Primer on
my eyelids.

I'm a huge advocate for primer when I wear my eyeshadow. I have to have it.
Once you have the primer on and have allowed it to dry--takes about a minute--you can begin applying make up.

I put the cream to powder all over my face and blend it off into my neck and ears, because there is absolutely nothing WORSE than having your make up stop abruptly on your face and look like a mask! (There's a sponge that comes with the powder) I also use the black liner to fill in the sparse places in my eyebrows. (Use a color that matches your brow/hair color)

I always start with my eyes, as I'm the most particular about them. With the "regular" shadow brush, dip it into the light gold shadow, just enough to cover the brush. (3 to 4 taps) and sweep it underneath your eyebrow as a highlighter. I generally sweep it from where my brow comes near my nose to the outer edge of the brow, under there.
Then, dip the brush into the darker brown (5 to 7 taps) and apply it from the lash line to the crease of your lid. (The crease is where the eyelid folds up into when you open your eyes.) Do this with a bit of a light hand, it is a DAY look.
Following the crease, sweep the shadow in basically the shape of your eyeball. and don't forget to blend, so there's no line between the lighter and darker shadows. You want them to be gradient and fade from dark to light.
Taking the blue liner, line around your top and bottom lash lines. (This is the POP of color and can be used with a variety of other liner colors, green, purple, turquoise...)

Finish off with a healthy dose of mascara. And here's a hint, as you apply the mascara, do NOT look at the wand. You will poke your eyes out. Look into the mirror as you apply, not at the wand, I learned this the hard way.

Now take the blush brush and pat it into the blush. (Usually only one pat of the brush in the blush, per cheek, you don't want to look like Ronald McDonald's lover.) Now I do realize that I am darker skinned, so my lighter complexion friends feel free to use a color that does suit your skin tone. You don't want the blush to be obvious, but more like you were teased by a cute guy and blushed from within. Suck in your cheeks and apply the blush to the apples of the cheek and up into the hairline.

Take the kabuki brush and blend over the blush, to ensure the "natural" look. 
With the kabuki brush in hand, pat it into the bronzer, very, very lightly. (again, pick a bronzer that compliments YOU). While most people apply bronzer in specific places on their face and bodies, I use it like you would a translucent setting powder--I put it everywhere.
I buff it over my face and neck and down across my chest--especially if I'm wearing a V-neck shirt like I wore today to draw attention to the boobies. I find using the bronzer in that way gives me a nice, all over glow.

Finally, finish it all off by slicking on your favorite neutral lip color, for me Rose Pearl is the MJ of neutrals for what it does to my lips! Loves it!

And get out the door with your pretty self!

(Honestly, it took me about 20 minutes to do all of this. And I do my face like this frequently on a daily basis, because I do prefer to wear "full" make up.)

Thanks for reading, and I'll be posting more blogs soon!
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Thursday, November 28, 2013

Why I Don't Like Holidays...

Hey Y'all.

It's that time of the year again, where the weather turns cold and year is nearing its end. And while most people get glassy eyed and moist mouthed about the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays. It's a time of feasting and family and camaraderie and memory-making. The sort of thing that makes a person misty in their twilight years...



At least, that's what I assume for OTHER people, anyway.
Since three am this morning, it's been nothing but work for me. Well, since yesterday if want to get technical about it.
I don't like my extended family, and would prefer to stay as  far away from them as humanly possible. So I do not spend holidays with them anymore. (I used to when my mother was alive, but that was years ago) They're the kind of people that if I were walking down the street and saw them on the same sidewalk, I would not only cross the street, but go about two blocks over just to avoid them.
But that's another story.
I hate holidays and have because since I was about 15 or 16, or maybe even younger, who the hell really knows, I have been responsible for all the major meals for Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's. Not one dish--ooh look, Tiff baked a pie--the ENTIRE meal.
And this year was no different. It was borne out of necessity years ago because my mother was a diabetic with no legs and could only sit and instruct me on what to cook. If dad were left to cook--I have a better chance of Michael Jackson coming to the door with a covered dish than dad trying to cook.
So, if I want to eat, I have to cook. No one is going to come and bring us plates of food, unless they want something, My family is one that moves in ulterior motives. They don't do anything out of the goodness of their hearts, its just not in them; perhaps it was bred out of them, I don't know. but if they come around and no one is in a casket, I get suspicious. My "spidey-senses" go to tingling.
And this year, I didn't even get to eat really, what I wanted to eat.
Because dad only has a few teeth and has trouble chewing, I couldn't buy a ham like I usually do--plus as a dialysis patient myself, this was frowned on--I had to buy tripe to cook.

Pull yourself together, it's supposed to look like that. No one ask me how I screwed up and managed to buy SIX POUNDS of that mess by mistake.
And I tried to make some decent sides with, a green bean casserole, some spiced stuffing, an apple pie, some biscuits. ( And dad very conveniently said he didn't want the damn casserole or the stuffing and I almost threw a large cooking spoon at him.)
Now, as I stated earlier, my day started at 3 am. Don't be fooled, there's Jacksons I wouldn't get up that early for.]But if you can wrap your mind around it, I had dialysis THIS MORNING at 5:30 am.
Because I refused to let them steal my Friday from me to do two back to back treatments.
I was mainlining coffee this morning, and was still so tired--I did NOT sleep the night before at all, my body is unaccustomed to going to bed at 10 or 11 at night--I didn't even put my makeup on!
So I get to dialysis and its so early its still black out, I'm SURE that all will be quiet and most of the people will be sleeping.
i have a cousin, Mary Louise, who also takes dialysis with me, because apparently, tragedy loves my family, was seated next to me. I get about 10 pages into my book, when i suddenly hear Tyler Perry's character Madea speaking.

Not mutedly or softly, but just as loudly as if Madea had waddled her fat, gender-bending self in there. Mary Louise had a portable DVD player and was playing her shit as loudly as if she were the only one in the room.
After trying to read for a while, I said fuck it, closed the book and plugged my headphones into my TV to try to watch a movie. Burt Lancaster was on. I'm not nutty about him but i could tolerate him that early in the morning.
The film, The Young Savages was about a murder involving some Puerto Rican and Italian Harlem hoods. And it was a REALLY GOOD film. And I BARELY HEARD it for my cousin's fucking noise.
I tried a few times to bring myself to ask her to turn it down, but as tired as i was it would have come out,
TURN THAT GOD DAMNED BULLSHIT OFF! So i kept my mouth closed. I don't know how she could be so ignorant to not care about anyone else there, that she might have been disturbing them. I play MJ almost constantly in there, you don't hear him unless you're on top of me.
It was ridiculous. i was supposed to sit in for three hours, but after only two, i threw in the towel. I couldn't do it. i was up and had been up so long.
They made me sign a little paper and I very distinctly remember writing,
"You trying staying awake over 18 hours and then having to go cook an entire meal alone. Have a pleasant day!"
And i brought my ass out of there and went home. Took my clothes off and went to bed for about 4 hours. i was still tired when i got up. But food wasn't going to magically appear.
The biggest part of the work is done now, but this is why i dread the holidays. I'm doing it alone.
And guess what, i get to repeat it NEXT MONTH for Christmas and New Years.
I need a drink.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

The Nerve of Some Bums!

Hey Y'all!

In my life I've pulled some stunts here and there along the way, but never before have I ever had a stunt (almost) pulled on me, like the one today.
I got to dialysis three times a week and on dialysis days, I stop at Jack in the Box for breakfast. It's cheap, it's hot, it's easy.
Now for the last few weeks, my dad's car has been making an odd sound and has to do with a fan belt or something. I don't know anything about cars just it should go vroom when started. Anyway, as we pulled up, I noticed a bum on the side of the road. Jack in the Box is right near the freeway and there's always at least one transient panhandling and begging, etc.
Daddy hadn't even shut the car off before the guy was at his window claiming he could fix the car with something, I don't even know....
As he bothered my dad, I got out to go on in the building and order my breakfast.
My dad blew the horn.
As I walked back, the bum came and said that MY DADDY told him I would buy him something to eat.
So, I'm looking at my dad like he's gone ape-shit crazy. I was broke with less than 20 dollars on my person and I had to feed not only me, but Daddy that morning. I was like, what the hell is my Daddy talking about?
And as I'm trying to get to the car, the bum is pointing out some meal that was like 5 or 6 dollars advertised on the windows of the place.
At the same time my dad is trying to flag at me.
I mean it was ridiculous, but I WAS going to go try to buy this bum something to eat.
As I turned, one of the workers came running out, and were threatening to call the police on the bum if he didn't go away.
The bum was doing his very damndest to get me to bring him food--I COULD NOT AFFORD!--and said he'd be across at the McDonald's.
With him finally shooed away, I went to go tear my Daddy a new butt and yell about what he was thinking about.
That's when I found out I almost got played.
Daddy said he told that bum he didn't have any money--which he didn't--and then the fucking bum came and LIED and said my Daddy had told him I'd buy the food.
I didn't see the bum any more once he got shooed, but I have seen him around there multiple times and if I see him again, LORD HELP HIM.
I try to be a good kind giving person. That's what I've been taught--to be sympathetic to the less fortunate.
But this bum just fucked it up for the entire homeless population, because I will only donate to a charity organization, not the single folks.


They can get my donations; no one else!

That doesn't make any goddamned sense. Tiffeny comes first, and I'm not gonna starve myself for someone that's not even my flesh and blood. I'd go hungry to feed my Daddy, he's my Daddy, but not some bum! Get a job. It's so fucking cliché. It really is.
It just makes me hot and angry and I literally want to run his happy ass over the next time I see him. It's already hard enough to make a dollar stretch in this damn economy--2016 needs to get here--and then with some fool trying to bilk me out of a dollar.
It really makes no sense.
I'm not giving a handout ever again. Sorry. Blame the bum by I-H 10 for that.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

I Demanded Michael Back!

Hey Y'all!

I know I have spent the greater portion of my life as a Michael Jackson fan, extremely loyal and dedicated to the One Gloved Wonder, but I never truly gave my fierce defense of him much thought until I had a dream last night that truly shook me to my core.



My dream was very strange. And while I didn't actually SEE Michael in it, I made enough noise about him, just the same.
I was with a group of maybe a dozen or so people, and we were in this old house. Something much like Michael's "Ghosts" video.
We all went down this long corridor and wound up in this old, wood-paneled office. The closest thing I could see to it was this from the film "Vertigo".

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All wood all very masculine looking. But it was dimmer, darker and much more sinister looking, Inside this office, strange things happened. Different ghosts began appearing to me and group.
Scaring us, taunting us.
People were screaming and crying and cowering in the corners, trying to escape this craziness.
And then a new figure came into the room:


The Grim Reaper.
As I live and breathe the Grim Reaper was in the room with us!
And the first thought that entered my mind was not of my own mortality or anything at all of the sort.
While everyone else was going off the walls crying and having tantrums I went directly to this.
To Death...
And started screaming at him to give Michael Jackson back.
Screaming, demanding and yelling at this faceless creature with a scythe (the knife on the stick) to give Michael Jackson back to the world. Take one of the other people in the room with me, but give Michael back. That the world needed him. I needed him; we all needed him.

When I awoke, it was with a strange feeling. Kind of like that strange woozy sensation after a thrill ride at the fair. I don't know what it all meant or what it was supposed to do for me, but that dream struck a nerve in me.

For me to stand, puff out my chest and go toe to toe with the personification of Death itself, to demand Michael Jackson be brought back to the world, even after four years, I can't even begin to describe what that feels like or means to me. It shows me that I still love him, I still care, I'm still a damn good fan to him. Especially to stand and yell for his return. Because I know it wouldn't just mean something to me...but to so, so many others.

I looked to two separate dream interpretation websites for some sort of clarification of what a dream of the Grim Reaper means. Both stated that it could represent aspects of myself I'd prefer to keep hidden. In the idea that I wanted MJ back and basically was willing to sacrifice anyone in the room showed I was kind of selfish. But I'm an only child, what do you want? I didn't learn the word share until I was six.
But if it is selfishness that made me want him back, its not a trait of which I would be ashamed.
All Michael ever did in this world was love and want to love and be a good, solid contributor to humanity. And if it's selfish of me to want to bring that kind of descent, outstanding individual back to the world, then I will go until the Grim Reaper actually does put his icy grip on me being selfish.
I don't want Michael Jackson back just to go to his concert or buy his album. I want him here because he truly did make this world a better place and I remember even on my worst days I would say "Well Michael is here, so it'll be okay".
There's so many people, so many fans, his family, so many in general that would benefit and appreciate having him back.
And if it's selfish I am, I'm proud of that selfishness in me.

It was all just a dream, but it made me see an aspect of myself I've never noticed before. And I'm glad I got to see it.
And that I almost--ALMOST--helped humanity.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

My Vintage Wardrobe Wishlist--PART 1: The Average Girl

Hey Y'all!

It's kind of common knowledge that I have a "passion" for fashions and attitudes of yesteryear. I've made no secret of my wishing to go back to a time when women dressed, looked and behaved like ladies. It's less prevalent now with twerk teams and thirsty broads on social media. (Seriously, does a guy really get turned on by seeing a woman shove corn on the cob into her hoo-ha? Much doubt) I know I jump up and down about the 80s, but the 80s are only 30 years ago. Damn it, I'm 27, I want something that wasn't common when I was a fetus. I really love the 1930s for some reason, probably because women with real bodies were considered beautiful and not quickly told to go on a damn diet.

So I have gone looking around the web and blog, collecting garments that I would actually sit, and place on my own body.

Me and my real body.

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I stumbled across this gem on a vintage blog (wearinghistoryblog.com) where the lady pictured above sews her own clothing from vintage 1930s/1940s patterns. I would wear this, but I don't like wearing brown. I'd prefer everything brown be red or navy to compliment my skin tone. Hat included.

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A beautiful sundress--I'm aware it's getting cold, toss on a cardigan! I love the sailor theme, nautical never goes out of style. Classic red, white and blue.
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Another Americana dress, that was made more in the style of the late 1930/early 1940s preceding the second world war. this is a reproduction of course. But very demure and the sort of thing a lady would wear to a Fourth of July barbecue. Not bootyshorts and a halter top. This would also be very suitable for a variety of functions from church to going out for casual meals and a matinee movie.
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I went nuts for this. It's from a stage production of His Girl Friday (if you don't know, wiki it, please.) I'm not so crazy for the dress, but it's the shoes that got me. the slate blue and off white with the stacked heel stole my heart! I die!
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This is a vintage advertisement. I'd wear the two in the middle. There's something about the short puffed sleeves the little lacey from detail that appeals to me and screams feminine. None of the women are showing too much, and it is perfectly acceptable. You see the lines of the figure and that is enough. This is how my grandmother,(father's mother)  who was in her early thirties at the time would have dressed.
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Eventually the weather would change, and though most people think of big, luxurious fur coats, it really wasn't practical unless you were a princess or extremely wealthy girl with a sugar daddy. (And until I hook Marlon Jackson...) this is what a girl like me would wear. I prefer the blue/grey number in the center.


Marlon wore the shiiiiiiiit out of a white smoking jacket a few days ago at a Motown event.
He's the last of the classy men...make a note of that y'all! You see something moving around that looks like this--CLAIM IT!

This is actually a 1920s flapper coat, trimmed in Monkey Fur. (Somewhere in Heaven, Michael Jackson just screamed. It's NOT Bubbles, I promise! )
Unlike today, when a woman could get splashed with red paint--and have to kill a person--there was no PETA fanatics back in the day and a lady could wear real fur without worry of it being destroyed, only a thief snatching it off her body. LOL.

This is a 1970s reproduction of a flapper coat, ELECTRIC BLUE VELVET because in that decade, there was a retro throwback inspired by films like The Great Gatsby. (Yes, there were adaptations of the F. Scott Fitzgerald prior to the Leo Dicaprio one. Perish the thought!)
(If I girl had a sugar daddy, items similar to the previous two would be in her closet.)
I'd wear this in the dead of summer buck naked underneath, it's so pretty!
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Into every life a little rain must fall, but a lady can still look good in a deluge. Frankly, I would wear every coat pictured, except the plaid one. I don't like plaid and am very picky about the colors and widths of plaid I put on my body. I only own ONE plaid blouse at the moment. And as "economically priced" as they are, I say I'd get them all if I could.
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I don't ski...I live in Texas, I've only seen snow TWICE in my life. But I thought it was interesting to show these skiing ensembles for the slopes from about 1938. I got as much business being on a slope somewhere as Rush Limbaugh does at a Black Panther Rally. Really. But if I get lost you can spot my brown self in the snow, drawing "HELP ME GOD" with a stick!
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Sometime between 1937 and 1940, Gold beaded/sequined/embellished gowns became the norm for evening wear. This is a sensational reproduction that was inspired by a dress Ginger Rogers had worn.
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This gorgeous sequined and feather edged coat was inspired by one Joan Crawford had worn.

(Inspiration)
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Ginger Rogers. Did you recognize her without Fred Astaire flinging her around?
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When she wasn't beating the skin off Christina with a wire hanger, Joan Crawford was wearing swank duds like this!

EVERYBODY RUN!

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You had to wear something under those pretty clothes. I'm okay with the 1930's bras, they could have used some padding, but were okay they look like current bras. The 1950s bullet bra was scary. You could put out a man's eye with all that underwire. The 1920s bras was not intended to boost up the boobs, but rather flatten them to achieve the "boyish" figure that was en vogue. But now frankly, I think if a man wants a "boyish" figure, he will go find it on another guy.
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The forerunner of Spanx, the girdle. All respectable ladies (and some bad ones) wore this garment to give them wonderful lines. They are pretty, but I cannot promise I'd wear one. I wore Spanx one time, and the only time during the day I drew a full breath was when I pulled the goddamned thing off. (No Spanx in the photograph of me at the start of this post)
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I do like that the models' bodies are shaped like mine.
These are knit undergarments from 1939. There's two things wrong with this.
I couldn't imagine how itchy it would be against my bare skin and nether regions and I can only imagine how hard a man would laugh if my clothing came off and he saw this. How you be sexy in the longjohns little cousin?

Something like that and I have to leave my shoe in a (bad word)'s forehead.
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No lady was caught without a hat, and I'd give my soul for that purple hat up top, that was popular in the late 20s and early 30s.
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A lovely reproduction hat at a vintage inspired wedding.
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Every last one of these bad boys....
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This picture has nothing to do with my post, but I just wonder a few things.
--Why the hell are you out taking a picture with a DUST STORM approaching? That's what that wall of grime is behind them!
--Why the hell is there a child out in the DUST STORM?
--Why the hell is the child in her panties IN THE DUST STORM?
That's all, thank you! I'll cover more in Part 2: THE RICH GIRL!

Thursday, October 31, 2013

The Small Man--MJ Horror Story!

I have always been fascinated by costume parties and masquerade balls. I have found a note of the mysterious when people congregate in one place, all dressed and appearing to be something or someone they are not. Of course, this friendly deception is done all for the sake of fun and amusement. But in this story, a young party-goer will find nothing fun or amusing when she encounters a strange and small man…
 
 
 
 
The Small Man
A Michael Jackson Horror Story By:
MJsLoveSlave
(Featuring Cameos by Marlon and Jermaine Jackson!)
 
 

Los Angeles, California
September, 1985

As a soft, classical piece--composed by of Mozart, but played by someone born in the twentieth century--spilled from the small radio affixed to the wall, a young woman sat before a lighted vanity, putting the final touches of make up to her face.
She was a stunning woman, with a fine brown complexion, slanted, dark, and deep set eyes, beneath pencil thin brows. Cascading over her smooth shoulders was long, thick black hair, that had been painstakingly curled and picked into place, almost as sort of a dark halo around the woman.
Her face, quite attractive when bare, now was made up in a becoming way: white and metallic silver shadow frosted her eyelids, off set by the black liner and mascara, a smattering of dark raspberry blush applied to hollows of the cheeks to make the bones stick out more, and leaning into the mirror for a closer look, she was painting her small, pouted mouth, with strokes of a bright red, glossy lipstick.
She was distracted from her own beauty by the meek and timid knocking.
“Camille? Camille, are you decent, Dear?”
Came the sweet, almost musical voice from the other side of the closed door.
A contented smile came to the woman’s face and she chuckled to herself as more knocks were placed.
For the last two years, Camille Dufrense had lived in the same condo with her boyfriend, Michael Jackson.
He could have rightly barged into the bathroom at will--Lord knows he footed all the bills--but he was a gentleman. He scarcely ever entered Camille’s private bath without knocking first.
“Come in, Darling…” She called and picking up a powder sponge was dabbing her nose with it.
A moment later, the door cracked and a lovely creature slipped inside.
Michael Jackson, a tall, fairly slim and gangly man, leaned against the doorframe, and reflected in the mirror behind Camille.
Michael was beautiful in his own right, with a skin tone that matched that of his girlfriend’s perfectly. His hair, jet black and arranged in short, glossy curls, a few falling into his eyes, bounced as he moved from side to side.
Even from where she sat, Camille could tell Michael was wearing his own cosmetics--kohl around the eyes and bright red blush on the cheeks.
He never left the house without it and even in bed she rarely saw his natural skin glow without his blush.
His taut, lithe body was hidden by a blue velvet robe.
Oddly enough, his feet and skinny legs were covered by hunter green tights.
“Camille, I was wondering if you’re almost done putting on your face…” He announced starting to stride over behind her. “We still have to get dressed and drive out to Beverly Hills to get to Marlon’s house.”
Again Camille smiled.
Michael’s older brother, Marlon, who was very fond of throwing parties for absolutely no conceivable reason, perhaps there was a bit of Gatsby in him, was giving a costume party at his estate that night--though Halloween was over a month away.
(And they had RSVP’d almost a month ago for the festivities.)
“Yes…” Camille turned and started to beam at Michael. “You know perfection takes time--”
She stopped abruptly, when she noticed that Michael was not returning the beam. Instead, he appeared to be frowning.
“What’s wrong?” She questioned, her small lips pushing out with misunderstanding. “Don’t you think I look pretty?”
Longs hands were shoved into the pockets of his robe and Michael groaned loudly,
“You look gorgeous, Camille, you always do, but…” He hesitated and his dark eyes met hers for a moment. “But, we’re going as Peter Pan and Wendy to the party, Baby.”
When her face showed she still didn’t understand her error, Michael elaborated.
“You’re done up like you’re going as Iman to a photo shoot. Wendy is supposed to be like, an adolescent or teenage girl. She wouldn’t be as made up as you are--”
“You mean you want me to take my make up off?” Camille, gasped aghast at the notion. “Do you realize it took me forty-five minutes to look like this?”
“Well--”
Rising up and placing hands on her hips, she continued,
“And I’m not a kid or teen, Mike! I’m twenty-five! It’s already enough I have to simper around Marlon’s party in a nightgown. Let me keep my face as it is! I‘m going to be at a party with all our friends--I can‘t go around with a bare face! It‘s….it‘s inhuman!”
Camille would have rather died than gone around their crowd looking pale and sallow with no color or accent to her face.
A cool, smug smile came to Michael’s pointed face as he looked down on the lovely and dismayed one scowling up at him.
“Even if I ask, you won’t take it off, will you?” He wondered, and stubbornly, Camille shook her head.
“Fine…” A long arm was draped around the woman and her forehead smooched lightly. “…I’ll take a ‘sexy’ Wendy with me to the party, then!”
Pretending to be angry, though she had won the battle, Camille continued to frown, as Michael continued pecking at her face, before his lips collided with hers, sweetly.
“I just hope no one tries to steal you away from me…pretty young thing like you…” Michael murmured between smooches.
Camille couldn’t stay angry, real angry, at him for long anyway. It was impossible to.
But if only she knew who would try to steal her away.

Three Hours Later
Beverly Hills, California

“…There’s something strange, in the neighborhood…Who ya gonna call? Ghostbusters! …”
Marlon Jackson’s grand and palatial estate, a soaring and sweeping, white Italianate structure, was a hotbed of activity that unseasonably warm Fall night.
All through the home, and spilling out into the expanse backyard, were over a hundred attendees, all wearing some form of costume, from a woman, dressed as a gorilla and carrying a Barbie doll--obviously King Kong carrying Fay Wray--to a man dressed as President John F. Kennedy--after the gunshot, with half his brain oozing out the large wound in back of his head.
Camille was having a pleasant time, dancing across the front foyer, packed with people, and sampling various appetizers as handed out by waitresses dresses as French maids. And from time to time, winking at the other males whose eye she happened to catch.
But she wasn’t going to flirt, she was intensely loyal and faithful to Michael.
Also he was nearby.
A few feet from her, Michael Jackson conversed with two of his siblings--he had eight others in all--Jermaine and Marlon.
Jermaine, who was notorious for changing partners like he changed drawers, had come as Casanova, a just characterization if there ever was one, dressed as an eighteenth century gentleman with a white powdered curly wig and heavily powdered face. For effect, every so often, he’d drop a pair of silky panties out of his pocket.
A pink and gold brocade suit and crisp white blouse covered his tall, chunky body.
(Already a scuffle had broken out between two of his girlfriends who happened to run into each other during the fete.)
The host of the party, Marlon Jackson, a man who always had a loud laugh coming out of his mouth, was a pirate.
A bit shorter and thicker of body than his siblings, Marlon was costumed, as a pirate.
He wore a ruffled, gold silk shirt, tucked into black spandex trousers, with patent leather knee-boots, all of which hugged his muscular frame. A gem-studded patch covered his left eye. A large, gold hoop dangled from his left ear and reflected the light, like his golden saber, hanging from his hip by a leather belt.
Jewel encrusted rings--all real--glittered as Marlon, talking about something in an animated fashion, was waving his hands around.
It was a good party, a good mood and Camille was prepared to party until the sun came up--as such shindigs did go on until the last patron stumbled on home in a drunken stupor.
As Camille paused, watching her boyfriend, now hooting boisterously with his brothers, she got the sudden feeling that she, herself, was being watched.
Tearing her gaze from her Suntanned Peter Pan, she began to look around to see just who was watching her.
Near her were several couples, but all were engaged in their own conversations, speaking and looking only at each other.
It took several moments, but Camille was able to locate the source of her creepy feeling.
A few yards away, leaning in the open doorway, leading off into the formal living room, a man stood.
He was a small White man, not really a midget, but much shorter than the general population milling about him. He had a strange, pale face, with large, wide and darting green eyes and short, dark hair, that was a bit tousled. He wore an ill-fitting light brown suit and held a fedora in one hand.
He amused Camille the moment she saw him, because he reminded her of some old film actor…she just couldn’t call his name.
Raising a hand she waved at him and he waved back.
What a strange, small man indeed.
“Caviar and crème cheese canapé, Ma’am?”
A voice questioned and mildly startled, Camille saw that a waitress had come up to her, balancing a large, silver platter in her hands.
“Yes, thank you.” Camille partook of a treat and as the woman moved on, looked to the door for the small man.
He was no longer visible.
Still curious as to the name of the actor he was portraying, she sauntered over to Michael, who remained clustered with his brothers by the winding, spiral staircase leading up to the second and third floors.
“…I’m glad I could make the party…” Jermaine was commenting, sipping from a flute of champagne. “…cause I’m taking off for Fiji tomorrow. Going on vacation….”
“HA!” Marlon screamed with laughter and gave Jermaine a playful push. “You ain’t fooling anybody man! Vacation my round black ass! We know you got a girl there--you got a girl everywhere! Don’t forget, you owe me for that Chinese urn your two battling babes broke earlier tonight!”
“Hey man,” Jermaine took another drink. “You knew you were doing wrong inviting Amanda and Shelly here in the first damn place! It’s your fault they got into it over me! I don’t owe you shi--”
“Can’t believe anybody would get into it over you.” Michael tossed his head, hair bouncing.
“You know what, Michael, fuc--”
“Hi, Boys.” Camille interrupted Jermaine, knowing that once he got wound up, it would be hours before his long-winded self would clam up. Or say something that caused Peter Pan to become a grown man knock the powder out Casanova’s wig.
“Hey, Baby!” Michael instantly had an arm around her and was tugging her close. “I hope you don’t feel abandoned, we were just shooting the breeze.”
“Man talk!” Marlon grunted and his plump lips were parting in a bright smile. Jermaine merely drank more.
“No, Honey…” Camille patted at Michael’s soft chest. “I wanted to ask you something--Who was that little guy we watched in that horror film the other night?”
A frown crossed Michael’s face as he pondered. “You mean that movie, “The Mad Hands”?”
“Yes…who was that funny looking guy in it?” Camille repeated, her own mind scrambling,
“I heard of that film.” Marlon interjected. “Y’all and your old ass movies--that actor is Peter Lorre.”
“That’s it! Peter Lorre!” Camille clapped her hands happily. “Who’s the guy that came dressed as Peter Lorre, he looks just like him!”
Taking an appetizer off a passing tray, Marlon popped into his mouth and shrugged,
“Hell, I don’t know; I invited half the people here and the other half, my wife invited. Might be someone she knows.”
“Where is Carol?” Camille inquired, ready to go find Marlon’s spouse, if she didn’t bump back into the small man herself.
“Um…” Marlon mumbled and rubbed at his chin. “Lord, I don’t know. I haven’t seen her since I popped the first bottle of bubbly, two hours ago. She’s somewhere--we kicked off the party in the rose garden out back, she might be there...”
“One of these days, you’re gonna lose that woman and not find her!” Michael cackled and scowling Marlon snapped,
“Aw, shut up and go find your damn shadow, Peter Pan!”
Kissing at Michael’s rouged cheek, Camille excused herself.
Making her way through the house, and dodging a partier who was vomiting in the kitchen trashcan, she made her way out to the backyard.
The party was even wilder outside, than in.
Several people were flopping around in the marble rimmed, liver-shaped pool, and a woman, completely nude--not Carol though--went running by whooping it up, four men, dressed as the Marx Brothers giving pursuit.
It then dawned on Camille that Carol could be anyone there, as she had neglected to ask Marlon just who or what his wife was dressed up as.
Was she a female pirate, or something else like a princess or a fairy or a fencer?
Starting around the pool, she began looking at every Black woman she passed, hoping to find Carol.
After squinting at a half-dozen women, and not discovering the elusive Mrs. Jackson, only a line of imitation Diana Rosses, Camille saw a welcomed sight.
Up ahead, and waving at her again, was the small man.
“Hey, wait!” Camille called and started towards him.
Much to her chagrin, the man turned and began pacing away.
There was no true rhyme or reason why Camille suddenly felt compelled to pursue this man.
She was not attracted to him in any way, as he was small, and quite ugly, and she had marvelous Michael whom she was more than pleased with.
But the small man piqued a rare interest in her, and she wanted to meet him.
That is, if she could catch him first.
She completely circled the pool trying to reach that strange creature and almost shrieked an obscenity when she lost track of him a second time.
This was starting to get ridiculous, now.
How could she lose such a distinctive looking person?
Resigning herself to the idea that she would never know who he was, and could not seem to locate Carol for help, Camille started back into the house to find Michael and spend the rest of the evening with him.
At least she knew where she had left her boyfriend.
Coming to where the spiral staircase met the foyer, she was dismayed to see Michael, Marlon and Jermaine were no longer there.
“Damn it all to hell!” Camille gasped to herself, pounding a fist into the palm of her hand.
Was she doomed to spend the entire party alone?
Passing the spiral stair, something just barely caught her attention.
Standing, about a dozen steps up and in the first curve of the staircase, was the small man.
This time, instead of waving, he appeared to be beckoning Camille. Wiggling a finger at her to come and join him.
Glancing around, and wanting to avoid a full-blown scandal, she saw that no one was watching her, and advanced up to the man.
Standing that closely to him, Camille was surprised to see that she stood a good foot taller than him.
“Hello.” She greeted him with a smile, and for the first time all night, he grinned, revealing tiny, weirdly crroked white teeth.
“Hello.” He had a light, brisk British accent.
“You’ve been a hard guy to catch all night…I must say, I do like your costume very much. It’s very simple. You make a great Peter Lorre--you look exactly like him.” Camille giggled.
“Costume…?” The small man echoed and was crumpling his hat in his hands. “You are very beautiful, Miss…”
Camille was quite used to being complimented, and took it as normally as discussing the weather when getting a bit of praise.
“Thank you, I’m Camille Dufrense, and you are?” She introduced herself.
“Timothy Alastair.” The man nodded, hat turning to a mess of felt in his hands. Was he that nervous to be speaking to Camille? Or was her beauty unnerving to him?
“Well, it’s very nice to meet you. Who invited you, Marlon or Carol?”
Timothy’s green eyes sparkled,
“Why, Carol did.”
“Oh, Carol did--and how do you know Carol, Timothy?” Camille was feeling at ease with this odd little guy and leaned against the banister carelessly.
“Carol and I work together.” Timothy replied, moving closer to her.
It was a simple benign statement, but one that struck Camille strangely.
Carol Jackson didn’t work.
She’d never needed to. She came from an old, well-moneyed Southern family, and had married into a well-moneyed West Coast one when she took vows with Marlon.
Carol was a woman who’s only work was to remain slim, pleasant and pretty for her man.
She didn’t need to work!
Camille gazed down at Timothy, who was so close to her it was becoming indecent. She could smell pipe tobacco on him plainly.
“Are you friends with Carol?” Timothy asked, a sleepy, half-lidded look coming to his eyes as he leaned yet closer to Camille.
“Yes…” Camille instantly aware of his sordid intentions, stiffened.
“Her husband’s brother is my boyfriend…if you’d please…”
Putting her hands up, Camille gripped Timothy’s tiny shoulders to push him away. He was too close for comfort, and Michael, once he got a few snifters into his thin body and system could be as fiery as a bull with red before its eyes if he saw someone on the make for his girl.
As she touched Timothy, she was keenly aware that he was cold.
Colder than any person she touched in her life.
Colder than anyone should have been on that balmy night, in a house spilling over with bouncing, dancing, drinking bodies.
She stared down into those green eyes, eyes that were sharply piercing her own brown ones. Eyes that seemed to be staring beyond her face, and were peering off into her soul.
Eyes with a gaze as cold as the body in which they were fixed.
And then everything went black.
Every, single, solitary light bulb illuminating Marlon Jackson’s home and property, all, at once, blew out.
Bathing everything within the iron gates surrounding it in sheer blackness.
“I’LL BE GODDAMNED!”
Came Marlon’s panicked cry a few rooms over, carrying above the din of surprised shrieks and intoxicated chuckles.
“A FUSE MUST HAVE BLOWN! CAROL! CAROL! CAROL ANN!”
Marlon’s voice passed under Camille as he went running through the mass, hunting his wife and the fuse box.
After a few moments of quite loud cursing between the host couple--Marlon had finally found his wife--the lights came back on and the pop music resumed blaring.
And Camille nearly came to leaping over the banister.
The small man was gone!
Timothy Alastair was gone.
Camille’s hands remained out, where she had been gripping his shoulders, but he was no longer under her grasp.
She held nothing but air.
Where was he? Where had he gone? The staircase was made of pure marble; anyone walking up or down made clear noise. He was gone and she had heard NOTHING! How was that even possible?
“Camille?”
Room spinning, the confused woman turned, and saw that Michael, dressed as that resplendent boy who refused to grow up, was mounting the stairs to her.
“Baby, are you alright?” He questioned coming and wrapping his arms around her, and went to peck her forehead.
“Camille!” He gasped, eyes growing large. “You’re trembling! What’s the matter? Were you afraid of the dark?”
Hugging her lover tightly, Camille hoarsely begged,
“Please…please take me home now! I want to go home now!”
Seeing just how stricken his girlfriend was, Michael nodded and took her hand. She cherished the loving warmth of his meat hook, after touching that cold small man.
“Oh…okay, Sweetie. We’ll go home. I’ll take you home.”
She just wanted to get out of there.
And put as much space between her and the small man as humanly possible.

One Week Later

“…which one of these do you think will go best with grey slacks and a white shirt?”
At the gentle inquiry, Camille looked up from the magazine she was flipping through.
Standing at the end of the couch on which she was draped on lazily, Michael stood, holding a belt in each hand.
One was about an inch thick and encrusted with pave crystals the other was much wider, and resembled a prize fighter’s belt, featuring several moldered starbursts, and was a gleaming silver plate.
Setting her magazine down, Camille replied,
“I like them both, but what’s the occasion?” She couldn’t recall them having an outing that afternoon.
“It’s not for me--it’s for Marlon.” Michael informed her. “Carol’s parents are in town and they’re having dinner at some place in the Hills. Anyway, he wanted to borrow one of my belts to offset the look.”
“Oh--the simpler one, if it’s for the ‘rents.” Camille snickered as the doorbell began to chime.
“Okay.” Michael nodded, tossing the larger belt onto an armchair and proceeding to the door, where he allowed Marlon in.
Marlon, already dressed for dinner, thought it was barely three in the afternoon, as he faced a long drive back into Beverly Hill from Los Angeles, breezed into the room in his loud and exuberant way.
“Hey Mike! Damn, that belt is perfect! Hi Camille!” He announced, taking the belt from Michael and waving.
“You came a long way for a belt.” Michael commented as Marlon stood in the front hallway, in front of the full-length mirror and began looping the belt around his slender waist.
“I know, but you always have the best junk just laying around. And besides, I don’t see the Parkers that often, since they live in New Orleans. I like to always make a good impression when I see them.”
Marlon explained, pulling a small comb from his pocket and ran it through his own thick black curls and picking at the thin mustache gracing his top lip.
“Yeah, I hear that. Seeing the in-laws would worry anyone.” Michael chuckled, as Marlon continued primping.
Camille, a silent spectator from the couch, opened her mouth and had spoken before she intended to,
“Who is Timothy Alastair?”
“Huh?” Both brothers distracted, hummed in unison.
She repeated the questioned.
“I’ve never heard that name before.” Michael blew off the inquiry and went to say something to Marlon, when Marlon, lock of hair still tangled in his comb, wandered from the mirror and over to the couch.
Looming over Camille, he stared at her, his light eyes full of strange glow Camille had never seen in them before.
“How on God’s green earth do you know the name Timothy Alastair?” He whispered, eyes growing larger.
“I met him at your party last week, he was the little guy I saw that was dressed as Peter Lorre.” She glanced at Michael, who seemed clueless, then back to Marlon.
“Why?”
Taking a seat beside her, Marlon still held his comb in his head.
“You met a man at MY party, and he said his name was Timothy Alastair?” His voice became even lighter in his incredulity.
“Yes, Marlon!” Camille insisted eyes blazing. “Why don’t you believe me?”
“Because…” Marlon finally got his comb free of his hair and tossed it on the wicker coffee table.
“Because, Timothy Alastair is the man that owned my house, before Carol and I bought it.”
“Oh…” Camille sighed. “You invited the former owner to your party. That was nice.”
“No it wasn’t.” Marlon shook his head and all his carefully tended hair flew.
“Timothy Alastair is dead.”
Camille went cold all over and was struck speechless.
“Marlon, what are you talking about?” Michael pushing his discarded belt aside, it falling to the floor, sat in the armchair.
Turning to gaze on his brother, Marlon said quietly,
“Just what I said, Timothy Alastair is dead…” Head lowering and starting to fiddle with his hands, Marlon started to explain.
“I never told anyone this, but when Carol and I bought that house, about ten years old, we got it cheap. Real cheap. Much cheaper than what it was worth. That house, when we bought it, was worth fifteen million dollars, but we purchased it for less than a million.”
Throwing his head back, Michael joked casually,
“You got that humungous place for one-fifteenth of it’s worth? What happened? Someone get murdered in there?”
The grin left Michael’s face when Marlon bobbed his head,
“Yes.”
Staring back down at his hands, Marlon continued solemnly,
“My house was originally built in 1931 for a wealthy playboy as his bachelor pad.” His eyes drifted to Camille,
“Timothy Alastair. He’d made his money on Wall Street and jumped ship shortly before the stock market crash in 1929. Anyway, Timothy played the field before sinking some of his money into a modeling agency. In 1934, according to the realtor, he fell in love with one of his employees, a model named Carole Sinclair…
Camille’s head buzzed at the fact. The small man said he had worked with Carol. Not Carol Jackson, but another Carole entirely!
“…They got married shortly after. But it seems Timothy refused to give up his playboy ways and had numerous affairs. In 1945, it reached a head. Timothy got one of his mistresses, a young woman, half his age, pregnant, and announced to Carole he wanted her gone. He wanted a divorce and wanted to marry and bring his younger woman into the house…”
Marlon sank back into the cushions of the couch.
“Well, Carole agreed to leave, and the divorce papers went in. Timothy married the second woman, I think her name was Jobyna, and they settled in. About three months after it all, Timothy and Jobyna were getting ready to leave on a delayed honeymoon. They were both in the front hall when the doorbell rang. Thinking nothing of it, Timothy went and flung the door open. And was immediately shot by Carole, who had come wielding a shot gun. Timothy died right there. Jobyna died a few feet away, trying to make a run up the stairs…she was six months along…Carole then went and phone the authorities. She spent the rest of her days doing a life sentence in prison…”
Michael, Marlon and Camille all sat quietly, the story sinking in.
Michael, still skeptical finally spoke,
“You mean to tell me…tell us…that Camille saw the ghost of a guy that got killed--over ten years before you were even born? Do you hear yourself?” He gasped shaking his head, his disbelief clear on his face.
“Michael!” Marlon fixed his gaze on his sibling. “I’ve seen a picture of Timothy Alastair. He was a man of short stature, and he did bear one hell of a resemblance to that Peter Lorre guy. And Camille did say she saw a Peter Lorre look-alike at my party. I don’t know anyone that small, neither does my Carol when I asked her about it.”
Marlon turned back to Camille and what he said next did nothing short of shock her.
“I’ve also seen Jobyna Alastair. Though it was unconventional at the time because people were backwards and pig-headed, Timothy, though he was White, married a Black woman. And if I squint hard enough at you, Camille, I can see Jobyna. Different decade, different make-up, different hairstyle, but the face is there.”
“Oh my God!” Michael, put his hands to his face
Camille, horrified stared off into space.
What had she seen in Marlon Jackson’s house?
Had she really encountered a ghost?
A ghost that was drawn to her because she resembled his second, murdered trophy wife?
A trophy wife he was riddled with bullets for?
Camille never did find out the answer.
Nor did she ever attend another party on Marlon Jackson’s property ever again.
If she again ever ran into Timothy Alastair, the small man, or the spirit thereof, who knows what might have happened to or become of her? 

I have always been fascinated by costume parties and masquerade balls. I have found a note of the mysterious when people congregate in one place, all dressed and appearing to be something or someone they are not. Of course, this friendly deception is done all for the sake of fun and amusement. But in this story, a young party-goer will find nothing fun or amusing when she encounters a strange and small man…

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

A Miscarriage of "Justice"

Disclaimer: This is a very, very angry blog. And as thus will be sprinkled with very liberal and excessive use of swear words and the term "nigger". If you are very uncomfortable with either of these, I advise you to please leave this blog post immediately. I am exercising my Freedom of Speech as an American. Thank you--Tiffeny B.

Monday, October 28, 2013, is a day that will thrive on infamy in the hearts and souls of every Michael Jackson fan, nay fanatic, dotting the earth. This is the day that Michael Jackson's murderer, Conrad Murray, a subhuman who masqueraded as a "caring" doctor, was released from prison following a laughable four-year sentence for his crimes against humanity.

Now, I am not any sort of legal counsel, nor have I studied law by any stretch of the mind other than watching episodes of Law and Order: SVU, but I am aware of this: If a person is responsible for the death of another person, they serve a far longer sentence in prison than just FOUR YEARS!

So, I am utterly lost at the damn moment. I don't understand how Conrad Murray, who was hired to take care of Michael Jackson, look after him, ensure his health, could walk off when Michael needed him THE MOST, and let the life drain from his thin body.
Now yes, I understand Michael was misusing a strong anesthetic to go to sleep. But Michael did not administer it to himself. He did not push the needle into his veins or pump the medicine through it.
Conrad Murray did this.
That goofy looking nigger was hired and paid a hefty sum of 5 MILLION dollars to only sit and watch Michael Jackson as he slept. Hell, I can think of a dozen fans right now who would forgo sleep, coffee and food just to sit at Michael's bedside and keep an eye on him. FOR FREE!!!!!

But no, this nigger had to choose then, as Michael was going to sleep, to get up and walk away, out the room, down the hall and chat up one of his whores on his phone. I sat through the Murray murder trial. He was NOT calling to his expectant baby mama--and he has a bigger litter than Jermaine Jackson--he was talking to no brain having little hookers/strippers/VD making machines.
Couldn't he have just texted her? Bitches like smiley faces!
And when he returned, Michael Jackson was dead.
Not gasping for air, not crying for help.
DEAD.
Gone, cold, blue, lifeless.
But I believe Michael Jackson left this world, knowing what was happening to him.
Coroner's reports states that Michael's eyes and mouth were OPEN, indicating that in the last moments of life, he most likely was looking for Murray, and perhaps, even weakly, called for HELP.
(Now of course, as his body was jostled post-mortem, his eyes and mouth could have opened, especially with the half-assed CPR being administered.)
Now the course of events following the discovery of Michael's body will forever be a thorn in my ass.
Conrad Murray was touted to be a "cardiac" doctor, and yet when he started doing compressions on Michael, I really think one of his young children could have done better.
CPR is supposed to be administered with the victim on a flat, sturdy surface.
This crazy, Planet of the Apes looking nigger was trying to do compressions on Michael while he was still in BED, on a soft mattress, and flopping around all over.
In the middle of this, he called for Prince, who, at the time, was only a 12-year-old little boy. If you call a little boy in and he sees his daddy dead, what do you expect him to do?
Start crying! Which is what he did. Michael's three children had a natural fit when they saw their father gone.

(Michael with his three children in happier times)

Everything Conrad Murray, that low, rat bastard did, seemed like the WRONG thing in all facets to me. He waited almost 45 minutes to call 911 and instead of screaming "MICHAEL JACKSON IS DYING!" like any normal person would, he simply referred to MJ as a "gentleman". Like yeah, Michael was a gentleman, but damn it, at anytime to wave his name around, this would be the appropriate time.
Then as the medics were loading the body away, with three children losing their minds in the room, Murray was trying to pack away, hide and dispose of propofol bottles. Trying to backtrack, eat shit , and cover his tracks.
Really bitch? Really?
Seriously? This nigger was hiding shit!
And then while the world was falling apart, not just for Michael's family, but for all the fans I know, Murray turned into the bitch a million people wanted to kill.

Not once did this son of a bitch actually own up to his own wrongdoings. I may have stopped salivating and wanting to taste his blood if he had stood up like a REAL MAN and said "I did wrong, Michael died on my watch, I'm sorry."
No, I'd have a better chance of French kissing Satan than that happening.
All through the trial, this son of a bitch, asshole, pussy ass bastard sat like he had done nothing wrong. Really, I kept hoping for Tito Jackson to climb over the barrier and lay him out.
I don't know why I specifically wanted Tito, just because he looks like he can throw a decent punch.
Fans here were besides themselves. Wide eyed, crying in disbelief, blood thirsty as I was.

Now I won't be nice, and I won't conceal my feelings. I want the man to die. It's an eye-for-an-eye type of situation. I want him to die. I don't care if it's a sudden dropping dead, a speeding bush knocking him over, or a vigilante armed with a Swiss Army knife, I feel this world would be better off without him in it.
All I can think of really, is the Saw film series.
It would be absolutely stunning to me if Murray suddenly woke up in a room and had to like chew his arm off or something to get away. And even after he amputated his own appendage, the room would blow up, or a pack of wolves come in and tear him apart like a gummy bear.
It most likely won't happen, but I would be pleased if it did happen.

I don't think anything too bad can happen to Murray. Nothing is too bad to me. Honestly. I may be evil and branded as a cold heart, unfeeling bitch, but in regards to Murray, I wear that title proudly.
I don't think that roach is fit to live, fit to walk the Earth, fit to be around other decent, normal God-fearing people.
He took this from the world:


He took Michael Jackson from the world. A man who only wanted to love and be loved. A man who wanted to bring sweet music and gifted dancing to the world. An man who gave to charities liberally. Who wanted to help the less fortunate. A man who poured his heart out to the world and wanted only to hug and kiss every person in it.


Michael Jackson was a man who poured millions of his money into the creation of The Neverland Valley Ranch. All for the purpose of helping sick and impoverished children to have a day of happiness. Free candy, cookies, cartoons and rides. The hugs and kisses they needed. The piece of childhood they could cherish. As a child all my  life I wanted to go there, even as an adult, I still wanted to go, run and shoot water pistols at Michael.
But this man had to die? Because he only loved and wore his heart on his sleeve?

This is why I want karma and God to cut Murray for loop. Nothing good can possibly come to this man. Nothing good at all, when you're so ignorant, such a sociopath, that you cannot recognize and own up to your own shortcomings and wrong doings. Nothing good can come to somebody who deep down to the core IS NOT GOOD. Murray is a rotten louse, who deserves to be in jail until time ceases to pass, and have a nice, big rough trick name Tiny make him his wife.
I am bitter. I am angry. I am cold.

This is a lovely jacket. It should still be hanging in Michael's closet. Not on his small cold body in the Glendale Forest Lawn cemetery.
Michael won't get to walk Paris down the aisle to give her away, or be the Best Man when his sons marry. He won't get to hold and kiss his first grandchild. That was stolen from him.
And I hope to God on all things Holy, he haunts Murray every waking day of his natural life.
Karma is a bitch and I want that bitch to get Murray.

I'm through.